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whenever i feel that im almost there,

things will some how happen making me feel that im not even close to my aim(s).

such a complicated feeling. should i be happy or sad about it?

happy because i realised my weakness/mistakes so that i can improve. 

sad because putting sooo much effort and yet im still far away from it. WHY?????

and this is not as easy as u think.

i ALWAYS come across this. especially for those subject which do not even have a text book for me to study. because im... very shaky. im those type of people that always change. constantly changing???? depending on my surroundings??????

most of the time, i get fed up easily and.. simply finnish my work.... because... my expectations are too high? Having such perfectionist aims without techniques to achieve it. I've got so many more things to learn. Or i should say that im lazy to put in much more effort??? because i know that im not only what i am now. im more than that. im better than that. im just lazy...???

damn. i need to be continuously motivated. and... learn to be patient.

i have my own thought in my head. as i said, im very shaky, and impatient. so i tend to change things. Things i feel okay/good previously, sometimes, i'll feel disgusted in the next moment. and being consistant is hard. im not that disciplined and... faithful xD lol.

i just want everything of mine to be the best.

but i never did it. 

im SOOOOO despo with it!!!!!!

coz.... listen what she played!!!! IT'S RACHMANINOV'S PIANO CONCERTO no.2!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg....... the 1st song u listen (if u ever click on that play button below....==) im soooo crazy over it when i was watching nodame! the starting is soooo attractive! *screams*

as u guys know, im ALWAYS crazy over yuja wang <3

lisa even asked me to just marry her... xD

but... she's AWESOME!!!

why dont she come m'sia?????? =(

i'll definitely drag wanyung to accompany me to her concert xD heard saw that?? wanyung!

u're gonna accompany me if she ever come to msia =D

but... ... .. this time... her eye brow's too thick... it reminds me of sin chan for a moment =/

right????

she's just SO gorgeous~~~ 0.0

CNY CNY~

u make me go REALLY fat... i think i gained more than 2kg d T^T like in 2 days????

the 1st day of CNY i really eat without control =S and i can feel my tummy is really growing... very very very fast. =S

went back my mom's hometown, penang on fri. and i expected that. when i went back, my aunts are all sleeping. (which is true) people calling me fat girl. (gahh... every year oso liddet .) lol i know im fat. good thing is u called me fat when im still in my good mood. teehee! 

owh and i went back, my aunts and uncle kept asking me to eat. eat eat eat... when im about stop eating, there comes those sound... ... ... ' EAT LARRHHH!!! CNY ARRR... GO BACK ONI gamm feeii larrr" 

im like okay lorh. i bei minn abit. EAT! xD

till ytd, few hrs before i went home. my uncle just whack my ass all of sudden when i was walking... and he said! ' dai siu jie!! *whack my ass* see ur ass SO BIG!!! fat lar u...'    gahh i know i know! im fat! okay!

i dont know why he like to whack ppl. but he seems enjoying whacking/hitting ppl... i mean.. the playing around type... but its DAMN PAIN!! he's a fun guy though. hehe.

AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i came back ytd. start the journey arnd 6 something and.... reach home at around 2am!!!!! WTH MAN!!! jam like shit...  sg perak rest area.. =S

Maddi Jane's a talented girl. born with good voice. plus she always choose those songs that suits her =)

its only one day, and her vid have already got 20k+ views.

I'm Bloated. 

My tummy is growing. and the rate is like... infinite minus 1. *screams + almost cry*

how can u resist those new year cookies right??? especially those nice ones. omg T^T

btw, penang, i'll be there tomorrow =)

omg. food heaven there... FOOD! AGAIN! urgh.

owh and, imma bring my books there. lets see if im gonna study there or not. XD

p/s: im not used to not washing my hair more more than 24 hrs. 

coz i hate it when my scalp stinks =S

Happy CNY people =D

its not even 12am, and i can already hear those fire crackers. the kaolat loud one. these people are rich~~ xD

i've been bloggin so frequently this whole of january. 

this shows 1 major problem in me. I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO STUDY! dammit. 

i should control myself. maybe after CNY holiday, i should get back on track. since im retaking bio, there's extra things for me to do compared to those who dont retake any subjects. i envy those who didnt retake. really. urgh.

i need to force myself to study, already. since mr satya aka mr satay (LMAO!) keep reminding us that trials' very soon, ms annie say those papers are hard... she see oso she feel like crying. omg. i need to bulk up. i've been slacking for 3 months man!!! 3 MONTHS! omg. =(

i dont want any regrets, i want my 1st straight A's in my life! == (yeah, i know im stupid. okay. i admit it. ==) 

btw, mr satya asked me something today, what happened to me during the sem break? because i laugh alot during this sem. lol. WHAT?! i always laugh that much....! .. ... ... okay.... maybe its more during maths class... because JUYINN'S SITTING BESIDE ME! she's the one who always pop out with all those random funny question.. and answers! how can i not laugh when its funny? i just cant resist it. but i promise i'll get good results. dont worry mr satya. i'll try my best. 

i am extremely tired!!!!!!

<3

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burlesque's AWESOME =D

christina rawks!!!!!!!

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

i cant wait till tomorrow, so that i can rush back home and ...

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 SLEEP! xD

went to the leo audition ytd.

it sucks to max(my performance.) but, u know what? that's not my most-embarrassing-performance. i should thank to what happened last year. prepare me for all these stuffs XD

btw, it was suckie because we wasnt ready. partly i was late, we didnt get time to have a real practice. and owh! it was a last minute choice lol.

wake up early in the morning today. 

how sad it is! when u have to wake up at 7am during SUNDAY! and today's weather is SO NICE to sleep.... such a waste.

there's a reason lar btw. i went to take my undang test. and i passed =D

its kinda weird. starting of jan, when i have PLENTY time to sleep and relax, i just couldnt bare with that... i cant stand the boredom! and i always feel that time pass SO SLOW! now its end of jan, college starts, im getting busier and busier. but im happy. why ar? most of my friends getting emo.. and im happy with it... ==

i know, im a weirdo. 

p/s: GOOD LUCK TO KUMAR FOR HIS INTERVIEW IN UK! and remember my piano book! =D

i went to pay fees for the bio retake these afternoon.

so, when i was at the exam unit's counter, there here comes, still that cute, that style, with his cute tummy, 100% focus on his fon replyin message. 

so i called him and said Hi to him lar.

and the 1st thing is, what he always did. with that 100% look like gummy bear's smile and.. said. HIII!!! HOW ARE U?????

me:fine =D

gummy bear: what grade u get??? (since im at exam unit, faham faham lar... he's askin abt my bio grade)

me: B... =(

gummy bear: *cute version of =(* nvm larr!!! try harder this time kay??? all the best and good luck!!! bye!

me: bye!!

he's still that cute lar. 

he just look soooo cute especially when he's carrying his bag

he look more like gummy bear when he's teaching bio and with his specs on!! (the gummy bear that produce the jump-jump-antidote!! 

i miss him!!!! LOL!!!!

speakin of missin ppl,

LISA LOW SOOK HWA!! I MISS U ALOT, too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm extremely tired, and i have piano class later. 

my life rocks. ==

tomorrow's chem test, and i havent finnish studying. 

im a genius. ==

and imma proudly say inform u guys,

due to my unsatisfaction towards my AS' bio result,

IM RETAKING! =)

i dont care how hard will it be.......... 

I WANT MY STRAIGHT A's!!!!!!!!

and i mean it.

so. yea. u know what imma say d rite? 

yes. results. 

the ang mohs gave to me 2 surprises. 

surprise number 1, they gave me a B for my bio.. wth. i WORKED SOOOO BLARDIE HARD FOR IT... well i think its because of my p3 and p1. coz im DAMN confident in my p2. damn you.

surprise number 2, they gave me an A for my chem!!!! erm. thats really............................. UNEXPECTED! =D all these while, i was expecting that i'll most probably get B for my chem. i love you ang moh! 

yeah. im kinda cuckoo d. coz they kinda like... make me feel good and bad at the same time!!!!!!! i really dont knw what should i feel. 

but there's 1 thing, im not quite satisfied. bio lar... al these time, i thought i could get A ... wtf. end up gettin a low B... sakai weak B..  ish.

so, A2, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! imma get straight A's.