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有位朋友说过' it's good to do something to brighten up somebody's day'

虽然乍听之下很令人翻白眼，尤其当说出这句话的人很三八、自恋，但也其实没错。而且要照亮别人的一天的方法不少也不难。甚至简单得一个真心的微笑、简单的问候、或是真心的拥抱，对于某些人已经足够了。

说到真心的拥抱，我一直到最近才察觉它的威力。

或许抱的人只感觉到自己把你抱得很紧，很紧。但对于被抱的人，感受到的却是一种莫名力量的传递。于文字抒发情感，我真的很不在行，所以这种感觉我不会说文字无法形容，只能说感受过的人都明白。

最近被孩子抱得多了。我会说他们拥抱的方式和懂事的人都不一样。
他们只是单纯地喜欢你所以才抱你，亲你，想和你赖在一起。道理其实和情侣一样，情侣们都只是单纯地想和对方赖在一起。

孩子们都很直接，不喜欢就直接讲，这也是我喜欢他们的一点。我很庆幸我暂时带着的孩子们都很单纯，直接。无论他们多调皮，多耗力起去控制，和他们在一起的日子虽然累但我还是很开心。开心的是他们肯付出，虽然他们有些道理不是很懂，但经过一番跌跌撞撞，最终还是明白了。至少他们会与你分享，而分享，是成人世界里很罕见的事情。

孩子们不会就说不会，不像大人们，不会仍硬着头皮做不肯问，结果搞出个烂摊子。

或许这都是社会把我们变成如此。成长的过程中，我们丢失了我们内心里的单纯与直接和勇气。

虽然孩子们的直接很多时候会让你们哭笑不得，尤其是他们的‘不懂就问’，但‘直接’是我们生命中很重要。大人们很多时候做的事情都拐弯抹角，其实想想，有那个必要吗？

对我来说做人直接一点，快乐一点，人生会更美好。 

It's been a must I post article about reviews of the year eversince I blog just for me to recap what I've done throughout the year. 

It's funny how this year treated me. I remember things didn't ended well last year and it quickly started.. horribly? Year started with exams then class immediately after it (only in IMU ME211 -.-). Honestly, IMU, stop doing things like these and expect your students to concentrate/do their work properly in class (especially PBLs) in situations like this because we WON'T and you knew it, AND STOP ASKING US WHY, BECAUSE YOU KNEW.

Then those postings. We had great time not going to uni I'd say  Thanks for giving us those opportunity?  It's fun knowing more people and knowing people more. 

Then there comes those annoying issues. But that time was so close to exam and the amount of stress managed to distract me from it temporary. Immediately after the exams, those emotions, sip in little by little, day by day, it's becoming so strong I can barely handle and I broke down eventually. I was too tired of it. Ever tried to give things up but you can't? That was what I was going through for the past few months. 

You always need a solid reason to give things up, at least I'm one of them. Or, you at least need that 'something' to stop you from doing whatever you're doing unintentionally that you eventually realize you've been doing all these while. 

Things weren't that low for the past year I'd say. There's nothing significant that defeated me till I need time to get up from it. If you're to describe it as a painting, this will be more of a red, pink, grey, and blue splattered all over like those modern paintings. 

2013 have been treating me good overall. All I need to worry were only studies, results and how to give things up. 

One thing I love about this year was how stable my relationship going with that 2 girls. When things get fucked up, they'll always be by my side with their words. Well, I do know people that thought that 3 of us LOOKS close but we're actually not. Don't think too much people. We have lots of similarities and one of them is we like having some personal space, for us to breathe, some privacy. We're those type of people who can't stand facing the same people 24/7 365 days and we LOVE being alone at certain specific time. So whatever you see, is what we are. I've always feel lucky to have them in my uni life, person whom I feel comfortable with, I can just say whatever and do whatever I want in front of them. It's really hard to find someone you feel comfortable to be with in your life. They're just so unique and that's the only word able to describe them. And yeah, you can call 3 of us freaks 'coz we do act like one most of the time. 

It's hard to find someone you love and you're manage to maintain your relationship as a friend but somewhere in your heart, you've already treat them, love them like a family. I'm glad that I'm sure that there's AT LEAST 5 I have. 

The world is full of love and what I noticed was people tend to neglect the love in them. Perhaps they were too distracted by their emotions towards other things. I was one of them some part of the year. But I learnt. I learnt to look things at a different perspective. I learnt to not get obssessed over small things and end up suffer from what I thought/expect things suppose to be. I learnt to give things up and thank God, things ended well just in time, just before the year ends. 

I'm grateful. :)

Especially with the accompany of these people.

3 freaks

The legendary 3 flowers and 3 grasses

Happy faces :D

Nov 21st.

The day I turn 21.
It's the day OSCE ends, the end of Phase 1. 

Speaking of OSCE, it was horribly done I'd say. Questions weren't that hard to be honest, it was direct in fact (except a few). I just don't know how can I perform such horribly especially in front of those lecturers whom I really look up to. Yes I regret for slacking during the OSCE night. I saw this coming and in fact i did nothing about it. My bad.

Anyway, back to the day. 

SO AFTER THE EXAM, straight to the birthday/post-exam celebrations.
There ain't no great huge party like how other 21 bday celebrations. 'Coz I'm too lazy for it. Those who know me well will know that I'm a lazy bump and I just hate planning things especially for myself. (You certainly can't expect much from a person who's lazy to even think of what to eat for daily lunch/dinner)

Thanks for those who celebrated with me no matter what's the story behind that you appeared that time, Thank you. I really appreciate your effort. As for those who didn't appear but wanted to appear (you know who you are), don't feel bad about it. It's the heart that counts. :)

Both lunch and dinner were great. 
It was tiring as I never had more than 4 hours sleep for the past... God-knows-how-long. But it was indeed, like what shuwhey said, a warm gathering. People I don't get to see often, people whom are leaving, people I feel comfortable being with, they all are, and I gotta say I love them a lot. More than you thought you know how much it is. And I'm more than grateful to know each and everyone of them. Thanks for everything, including your presence :)

All I wish is this turn out to be a great year. That's all I'm asking for. 

[Photo credits to MingHui and ShuWhey] 

Sincerely,
Michelle Too.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"

是的，这首歌，唱着的是你。

说过要把你放下，我正努力着。

而你，在我完完全全把你放下前，有什么话想对我说？
因为我不保证我以后会像现在一样，把你的每字每句都牢记在心底。