when things doesnt go in your way,
you just hate it. we hate it. everybody hates it.
when you realize things you wished that it will be the best, no longer going to be the best, the anger, the disappointment, the unwillingness to face the reality, gushes up form your bones into your mind, you try to do everything you can to fix it. and after you wasted so much money on the phone calls, after the long hours of searching until the eyes are dry and pain, after so much energy wasted, you realize, there's nothing you can do about it but to face it.
then reality forces you to face it. no matter how unwillingly you are, you have to face it.
by looking how the others being so chill about it. you feel that your effort are useless. eventhough you get what you want, they wouldn't appreciate it.
they think, ignorance is a bliss. you are such an inefficient biatch. that's all. nothing much to describe. wasting time.
when you try to give some thoughts out, they still ignore you. all they do is ignore, ignore and ignore at that time, and talk bad about you after some time, telling everyone 'mysteriously' and 'secretively' how inferior you are.
you should feel even honoured if / whenever i talk to any of you. because i dont talk to anyone. the more important you are to me, the more i talk to you. not even giving my opinions.
you see, the thing is i tried commiting myself with you people. and all you did was IGNORE. i know it's fun to ignore someone. but please bare in mind, i am now giving you 3 last chances. once 3 of them are used up, i'd say, sorry but you people are out of my world.