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Parents are nothing but the 2 person who made you, biologically. They are nothing but 2 people, who are elder than you, and think that they lived longer than you, hence make them far more superior than you, and basically, they own you. which is true. they own you, so you have to follow whatever they said. 

Parents, are nothing but the 2 person that claim that they care for you, in which, i dont know how many of them do so deep in their heart, then they will start scolding you 'for your own good', in which this point, i oppose very much. they 'care' for you, well, partly, if you're the lucky ones, they love you. whereas the unlucky ones, u're just here to please them. when things don't go in their way, they make you feel bad. they insult you in all kind of words. well, asian parents. this is typical, especially those who were brought up in an extremely asian minded family, like mine. To be specific, they haunt you with the same old thing you done wrong once, and they exaggerate it. Not enough? they tell the whole world, right or wrong things you done, they tell whoever they know when they talk about it. 

Or you call it a genetic thing. Your characteristic, your behaviour, its a total reflect of your parents. The thing in human is that they dont like to see another side of them in another human being. Especially, human pick up negative attitude from others so quickly that they didnt even notice it. One thing parents like to do - boast about themselves. This is how a parent wil do to their kids when their kids is not how they want. 'Can't you be like me? I've set a good example for you, why dont you learn me?' and then the scoldings start. Things don't work that way, to all of you parents. You see, when you boast about yourself, yes, maybe a 2 year old kiddo will think yeah i shall be like my parent. but as they grow older, you 'technique' of teaching kids dont work anymore. when they goes to the primary school, they mix with the others, they pick up others' behaviour, they start thinking, whats the point of me being you? it's pointless, useless, troublesome. why? because you never reason the right thing to them. 

Reasoning, very important survival skills in this society. 

and now, after such lengthy piece of shit i wrote above, i'll start explaining why i have such thoughts. 

My parents, just now, scolded me for what-ing them rudely everytime they ask me to get down from my room for dinner. It was out of sudden. Someone just decided to scold me since they've got the groove to scold people. yea, groove. 

Things you need to know is, i HATE people calling me for no reasons. i hate it, a lot. hence, that is a reflex of me reacting towards their act. when i ask 'what', i expect them to answer me, they didnt. another thing you need to know is, when u're finally in the mood to study, people calling you, without reasoning WHY, is extremely annoying. it just crushes your mood, for everything. therefore, the annoyed face. 

and the parents, well, they claim they are very understanding. erm, to me, their understanding level was only to a certain extent. moms always say this ( a direct translate in chinese) ' Its me who gave birth to you, so even your little movement, i can know what are you thinking' Moms just LOVE this statement to boast about them understanding their kids completely. reality = they overestimated themselves too much. 

If my parents would've understand me completely, they wouldnt scold me, instead, they'd talk to me about it, not yelling to me, when there's only 4 people in a car. 

The reason I cried, it wasn't because i felt guilty. I was frustrated, I was so pissed that I couldnt even talk back. As my age, crying in a restaurant, is a thing i shouldnt do, it was embarrassing. extrememly embarrassing. I tried to hold and suck up those pathetic tears, but i couldn't. i was just too pissed to suck it up. throughout the meal, the tears kept flushing out. Couldnt even eat properly, couldnt even finish that plate of rice eventhough i really wanted to finsih it. 

So finally, i decided to speak up after all these years. 
As what parents normally do, they shut you down. It was expected. But its pretty amazing to see those effect of the few words when you talk back. my mom was very pissed, she even intended to slap so that i stfu. no wonder my brother loves to talk back. those reaction, you'd never feel so special by pissing a person off within 5 words. 

 

All these, isn't it dramatic? 
groove- scold - cry while eating in restaurant - speak up - about to get a slap - stfu. 

well, all these, are actually a drama for my dad, to shut him up from nagging about my brother. no wonder she kept picking on me -.-
(if i knew it earlier, i'd cry more -.-)

 

 

Only a few more hours to 2013. 

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people, might think she's beautiful. 

but i think she's ugly. this is not some kind of jealousy of her .. interesting lifestlye?? well i dont envy nor admire her lifestyle. no. i enjoy mine very much. i like staying alone. it's a kind of freedom.

everytime she appears, it's the bunch of make ups on her face. it's obviously till the extent that when she removes her make up, u'll never recognize her. because the eyes are instantly shrink so much, and her brows, well, most girls who does make up all the time have this prob - the browless look after removing their make ups. 

so, why? 
it seems you people does make up all the time, it is almost everyday. well, your skin probably gets only 8 hours rest a day, and breathe, and that is time when you sleep. so why torture yourself when your skin will only get worse so much fast? and i remember you used to, and still, complain about your skin condition. why wont you rest your skins from those claimed to be organic / very efficient skind products? not to mention those cosmetics drains off your money in no time. also, those night parties, drinkings time-consuming-and-thinking-consuming-costumes. i dont doubt you having so much time. i really dont. coz you dont study medicine, you took... business or some managing course, if im not mistaken. 

its the mask after all u're wearing all day. i mean the make ups are as thick as the mask AND the way you mask yourself from the true you when you're socializing interacting with people. 

give yourself a break, have time with yourself, stop partying like there's no tomorrow. it's unhealthy. 

your family dont have that much money for you to waste on luxurious food, drinks, bags, shirts, shoes, PHONES, etc. save some money for your sister. i know u're quite famous in the town, tho a few of those people i know doesnt know you YET, they will one day. u probably got money from your writings and posts. still, save some for your sister. stop wasting on unnecessary unhealthy stuffs. and i really hope you do. 


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2012,

They say its the year that the world would end. apparently, no. im still alive. and for that day, i remember i tweeted this pic, and shuwhey said she like this expression alot. actually, this pose was inspired of her 'wtf-wtv-ur-such-an-idiot' pose. :P

 Photo on 12-21-12 at 2.40 AM  

'its 2012 and im still alive like duhhhh' 

 

it was indeed an.... interesting year...??? and yes, been through tonnes of ups and downs, as in non-PMS related ups and downs, if u get what i mean. 

its 31/12/12. its the last day of 2012. (oh shut up of course you people know its the last day of 2012 -.-)

i feel kind of sad actually, (again, non-PMS related feelings). the fact that i've known so many more people that i've been wanting to know, how hard i fell and how hard i tried to get up. it ain't an easy thing to do u know? and such an awesome year, ended just like this. it was colourful year. it was. compared to 2011, which is more of a ... bright piece of art, this is as what i described, colourful. those colours, they fit each other so well. such piece of art with such harmony of colour, it's beautiful. :)

well, things i learnt this year, work your ass off smartly to get what you want. which is... true. but make sure that you are who you are when u're dealing with such thing. if it ain't your thang, shut up and do what u're suppose to do at that time. easy. follow your heart. 

second thing, lies. 
well, its somehow easy for me to know people are lying, when they are lying at that moment. but people never get it when im lying. smart move huh? :P well thats because... i barely lie to outsiders, coz i dont talk much to them. an entertaining smile and those 'yeah hahahhhhh', 'liddet lohhh hahahahhhh' and those unwilling 'hehhhsssss' simply shut them outta my world. HOWEVER, people i know who i talk to them, i know you are lying when you are. :) the reason i dont bust your lies, its that im lazy, and im tired to argue. when you lies, i know, and i'll shut up that onwards. 

third thing, entertainers. 
im sure there ARE people around you who are your entertainer/treat you as their entertainer. by that i mean, 'fake friends'. those who give you good words, when you're some deep shit and u stinks. for such people, easy, give an eye for an eye. they are just so complicated that they don't worth you to waste ur time, treating them as ur what, like buddies whom you'd die for? nah, forget about it. that'll never happen. not trying to be inappropriate, but think about it, they are just treating you as a sex toy. they need you, they'll be there for you; they dont need you, they'll get lost, and YOU, u'll always be there for them. u're nothing but their sexy toy. unless u're willing to do so. i wont.

etc, etc, etc, for things i learnt throughout the year. it'll be a mil word post of i cont -.-

im lazy to type anymore. let the pics do the job instead. :)

spot was mine. WAS. im still pissed about it!

 

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