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this place used to be a happy place. a place filled with my sampat-ness, showing how i enjoyed me life, people around me. not to say im not enjoying my life now. i DO enjoy my life. i always present myself as a hyper girl full of enthusiastic. 

but things are different when im alone, sitting down infront of my mackie in my room. it's not the lonliness in me, i never feel lonely unless something happen and hit me in my face. its the insecure in me. as day pass, i feel more insecure. im afraid. im afraid to lose everything in having now. for those of u who know me well, u should know, i never take people around me for granted, never. i always appreciate getting to meet you people in my life. i always care about your feelings. i'm always afraid of hurting u peeps and that's why i'll think alot of how to structure my sentence before telling u smth bad.

and studies. im slacking alot. i might look as if i studied alot, but sorry to tell, no, i don't study as much as u thought. distractions. i wont blame distractions but myself, coz im the one who dont have self discipline to get my things done. imagine, how the guilt is drowning me when other people are studying like mad, and im not. fb-ing tweeting and youtubing every single day and disturb them most of the time. and i feel freaking guilty every night before i sleep coz i studied nothing. NOTHING! 

i know myself well. im not that smart as u people think i am. im not. im just lucky at times.