♪♫ ~*Mi¢hεl£ε•τoo~*♪♫

life's great these days. 
ain't as bad as it sounds before. 
i'd cherish the moments im having now.
the laughter, the nonsense i did with those awesome people around me.
i feel so proud having talented people around me. i really do feel proud. u know who you are, if u every see this :)

i never understand why some people always admire people who knows how to play any musical instruments till this second. 
its either they DO NOT have the chance to learn it, or the GIVE UP easily. 
it's quite heart breaking whenever u hear someone saying, i lost interest in (something). 
like for me, i feel extremely happy whenever people telling me how much they admire certain musical instruments. for those who don't have the chance to learn it, i really feel sorry for them, coz i can totally feel for them. when i was younger, i always wanted to learn drum, but heh, my parents doesnt even allow. they said, girls play drum, not so appropriate, doesnt look good with the legs open so wide there -.-

feel soooo good after practice. 
its been sometime since i practiced seriously.
i'd never been practicing like that since uni started.
it feel soooo good.
as if i just finished exercising :D
especially the moment when u play till u sweat,
and u realize, owh! i fixed that part!
the satisfaction,
eventhough its only a bit of the whole song,
will still be there :) 

i always think i dont have enough of that. especially when praticing, coz i cant stand the lactic acid accumulating. its so... sourish..?? TIRING!!!
 
and fyi, im a perfectionist, tho i dont look like one to most of u. 
i always hope for the best, wtv i do, i'll have high aims for it. but heh, everytime, especially when im almost there, i loose my patience and i gave up, then regret. D:  
lol. actually, people've asking me if i do cover and upload on youtube. and haha, sadly, the answer is, NO! its not that i DON'T want to do. it's just that, im never satisfy with those recordings. 

never put high hopes on people coz they'll deceive you.
when you think everything's going great, you'll somehow feel something. it's weird. as if God's telling you, Hey babe, no, things doesn't work this way, don't put in so much hope, it's gonna be disappointing. and then, you'll see things that make you heartbreak. 
then you realize, ur intuition was right, disapppointments.
i don't like feeling these. you peeps always say, i look happy in real life, but i sounds so emo through the internet. imma tell u, no. u're wrong. i tend to not posting happy things thru blog because i'm usually busy with my stuffs when im happy/hyper, unless im really free to do so. 

this place used to be a happy place. a place filled with my sampat-ness, showing how i enjoyed me life, people around me. not to say im not enjoying my life now. i DO enjoy my life. i always present myself as a hyper girl full of enthusiastic. 
but things are different when im alone, sitting down infront of my mackie in my room. it's not the lonliness in me, i never feel lonely unless something happen and hit me in my face. its the insecure in me. as day pass, i feel more insecure. im afraid. im afraid to lose everything in having now. for those of u who know me well, u should know, i never take people around me for granted, never. i always appreciate getting to meet you people in my life. i always care about your feelings. i'm always afraid of hurting u peeps and that's why i'll think alot of how to structure my sentence before telling u smth bad.
and studies. im slacking alot. i might look as if i studied alot, but sorry to tell, no, i don't study as much as u thought. distractions. i wont blame distractions but myself, coz im the one who dont have self discipline to get my things done. imagine, how the guilt is drowning me when other people are studying like mad, and im not. fb-ing tweeting and youtubing every single day and disturb them most of the time. and i feel freaking guilty every night before i sleep coz i studied nothing. NOTHING! 
i know myself well. im not that smart as u people think i am. im not. im just lucky at times. 

not in the good mood to joke around these days as i was in the previous months.
so sensitive. 
there ain't wound. but dont even dare to come and touch me. it hurts. no matter how. 
sometimes i'd prefer u to shut up and do your work, rather than to ignore me and talk to others. as if i did something ridiculously wrong to u. wtf are u thinking man! and what's with the tone of u using to me? who do u think i am? im also a human u jerk! I HAVE FEELINGS!!!

i dont know how i feel,
you wont know how i feel, 
you shouldn't know how i feel,
because u're not suppose to know i feel,
and i know i shouldn't be complaining about it,
because i ain't suppose to be doing these,
all the jealousy,
all the guilt,
all the evil thoughts,

whenever u think u're in a peaceful, awesome life, something must happen, telling u that u're slacking and u're not suppose to slack at that moment and things change eventually. 
most of the time things comes automatically to u when u aren't ready for it, and by the time that u're ready, u'll realize that missed the freaking chance. 
sometimes, its better that u not knowing such things happening that u're involved but you shouldn't know because u'll simply ruin things up after knowing it. 
some people claim themselves as complicated person but actually, they're not. they're just.... .. .. . they just want your attention. 

  
The finger monkey is the tiniest living primate in the world, so small that it can hold onto your finger.  These primates belong to the family Callitrichidae, species Cebuella, and genus C. Pygmaea.  They are native to rain forests ofBrazil, Peru, Bolivia, Ecuador, and Colombia (source: Buzzle). 
  
If it wasn't for the Internet, would you have ever seen or known about these little creatures?