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i dont know about you people, but i'll go hyper whenever i see my friends no matter how shitty i feel inside. 
class' great after the 1 week of CNY off. i mean, CNY! the number of angpaos received doesnt really matter to me coz CNY is all about reunion! meeting your.. ... ... long-time-no-see family members! your cousins, your fun AHNTY and UNCOs! owh and.. FOOD! :D CNY cookies! nom nom noms~
i wasnt in the CNY mood till the 1st day of CNY, 12am :P the mood came in only after wishing everyone i know (most of u) why is that so late? ehem. because, A MED STUDENT IS LIFELESS!!!! imagine, u have to study during ur CNY, when u're suppose to eat, sleep, play, receive angpaos and repeat! haha. okay okay, i know im exagarrating. yes. being a med student is lifeless. but in MY case, its because my exam's around the corner. so yeah. 

its been a sweet CNY this time :)
things i didnt expected came in sweetly. 
the only thing i hope is to keep this sweetness going throughout the year, even CNY's over. 
 

没结果，就是没结果。 
再怎么盼，再怎么望，也都没用。
与其像个傻子，与其像个疯子，与其自己疯狂，
与其每天早晨充满着天堂般的期待，然后仿佛由天堂坠入地狱般的失落，

"Study's a very hard thing to do u know? u must be determined and discplined enough to clear your mind out and sit down there and study" - Ms annie
frankly, i didnt really get what she meant until recently. i mean, why is it so hard to sit down, and clear my mind off and study? why is that so hard? it's either im distracted or i feel sleepy a few minutes later. and then, wtv i read are outta my mind. 
it's like i can do anything for HOURS than studying. i can stare at some white boring plain wall for hours than studying efficiently, i can watch tv and rmb everything there than studying efficiently, i can youtube for hours, i can fb for hours, i can chat for hours, etc. 
anything but studying efficiently. W.H.Y!

sometimes, silence's the gold, preferably, with a smile. and that's what i always do. 
been having mood swings these days and its so temperamental. its like, being hyper in this min, and the next sec, not sure whether's the consequence of being hyper or what, i'm emo. its like a plane crash. being high up in the sky few min ago and nxt few min, crashed. and the funniest thing is, im back to normal in the nxt few min, and there again, when im alone or even some small, tiny lil thing happened, i get emo again. sigh. hormones *shakes head*
i wouldnt say i've been crying alot these days, in fact, i did cry. but not a lot. 
i need to release all these shit i have in me. and the only way, is through tears. shedding these tears, with full of negative feelings, feels great. ofcourse, i have a shortcut way of shedding these tears, watching some sad/touching movie. :P i mean, that's the fastest way to cry if u feel really horrible at the moment but there's no way to release it. To be frank, i tried crying using adele's song. but, idk whether the problem is that i listen to much to her songs or what, i somehow can't cry. the most would be tearing up, and it dried up. thats all. 

I NEED A BETTER BRAIN!


A BRAIN THAT CAN CONTROL MYSELF BETTER!
A BRAIN THAT DONT FORGET STUFFS EASILY!

there are more time per day, so that i have more time to study and sleep longer.
exams aren't on end of feb, so that i can go see wongfu without any worries.
you remember me, you talk to me, so that i'll be motivated to study everyday. 
i have better brain, so that i remember whatever i read and waste so much time reading/doing the same old thing over and over again. 

it's not THAT long since i blogged here. it was only before i went overseas. 
it's not that i don't wanna blog, it's just that im so tired, never get sick of sleeping since i was back from HK&TW. and yea, im lazy to report out what i done there coz so many things happened. ANYWAYS, i had great time over there. :) 
and yeah, this is the 1st post of mine on 2012. 
i really think 2012 is a year to learn, much more, compared to past years.
i'll be more and more busy, i suppose? with all the exams coming up. starting of the year, mid year, mid-mid year, year end, year end-end... yeap. exam year.  

been out during the weekends. 
im literaly being outside more than at home.
i dont have much chance going out like this.
coz my mom's such a lazy bump that she'd rather stay at home and sleep during weekends :P
which is kinda boring to me.  

im running outta time! 
there's so much more to study. and i tend to forget wtv i studied. *lifetough*
and when i had plenty time, i wasted it. *inmyface* 
been sleeping at home these few days since classes are cancelled, will be replacing in jan tho :/
but still, no matter how much i sleep, the panda eye's still with me. 
PANDA EYE, Y U NO GET AWAY FRM ME???? *trollface*