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It's been a must I post article about reviews of the year eversince I blog just for me to recap what I've done throughout the year. 
It's funny how this year treated me. I remember things didn't ended well last year and it quickly started.. horribly? Year started with exams then class immediately after it (only in IMU ME211 -.-). Honestly, IMU, stop doing things like these and expect your students to concentrate/do their work properly in class (especially PBLs) in situations like this because we WON'T and you knew it, AND STOP ASKING US WHY, BECAUSE YOU KNEW.
Then those postings. We had great time not going to uni I'd say  Thanks for giving us those opportunity?  It's fun knowing more people and knowing people more. 

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Nov 21st.
The day I turn 21.
It's the day OSCE ends, the end of Phase 1. 
Speaking of OSCE, it was horribly done I'd say. Questions weren't that hard to be honest, it was direct in fact (except a few). I just don't know how can I perform such horribly especially in front of those lecturers whom I really look up to. Yes I regret for slacking during the OSCE night. I saw this coming and in fact i did nothing about it. My bad.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
是的，这首歌，唱着的是你。
说过要把你放下，我正努力着。

算了算，其实都已经半年了。
半年，不长也不短。
如果说，你也和我一样，那就结束这场痛苦吧。
这段时间，这样断断续续地，我很痛苦。本以为能开开心心地往前走，却一个不小心回过头，给绊住了。后来的许多次，告诉了自己千万别回头，好了，终于没回过头了。你却在我的前方挡住我的去路。

算了算，这个月已经哭了第二次。
事实上，回想了一下，当下真的没什么好哭的。
重点不在于事情的经过，而是为什么有了哭劲。
每个人的哭点都不一样。看似小事而崩溃的背后，累积了多少的逞强，多少的压抑，又有谁了？

从前，我是个努力讨好身边人的一个人。我从不让自己错过身边发生的任何事。 
从前，因为害怕寂寞，我会努力让自己追上他们的步伐。
 
但追逐了那么多年，追逐过了不同的人和事，累了。懒得继续追逐下去。

要说这几个月发生了很多事？其实也没有。
 
2013年都已经八月中了，这八个月发生了很多事？也。没。有。我的人生好像除了读书（其实也没有比别人认真，更别说‘拼’这个字了），琴，上网，听歌，聊八卦（讲来讲去还是讲那回同样的那几个人），也别无其他。
有时候会想，我的人生那么的枯燥，到底是怎么一回事？

亲爱的自己，
这是有生以来第一次，有‘人’写信给你。
自己写信给自己，没什么错，也没什么好觉得悲惨的。
 

I was scrolling down facebook, a newsfeed of yours popped up on my timeline, so i went to your page to have a look, to get myself updated. As I was scrolling down, memory stirs. Whatever happened gushed out like a waterfall. 
this was many years ago and this, made me who i am today.
You're once my best friend. I knew you were complicated with your huge social cirlces, knowing tonnes and tonnes of people i don't know, also, your ability to use the exact thing happened and turn the story up side down. People been telling me you're dangerous, even my parents. But I took those words too lightly. You showed your 'loyalty' in front of me by stabbing others' back. Same thing happens when you're with others. Perhaps I wasn't even a friend of yours, a toy instead, to entertain you. 
The reason you got close to me was because I was perhaps approachable to you when we were in the same class. Which was when you had a terrible quarrel with your princess. (For those of you who don't get who was I talking about all these time, a 'she', is the only thing i could tell you here) Basically, I was only her substitute, a best-friend-substitute. And so happen that you and her, were no longer in the same class like how both of you were back in the previous years of secondary school. I was indeed happy thinking I've finally got a best friend in this school.