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it's been a long time since i had a hard crush on someone. its hard for me. 
it's been some time since i had ups and downs over a person. it's hard. It takes time for me to develope these feelings over someone. 
but for a certain time, i miss those feelings somehow. Is it me or others' problem? It's as if every single one in the world have someone that make them feel that way. 
I miss those tachycardic moments when i see someone. I miss those crazy excitement looking forward to see someone, and those desperate moments wanting to be with them. my life has been kinda dull too peaceful since the year starts. not sure if it's a good thing. but i'll treasure these moments before those storms come. 

Parents are nothing but the 2 person who made you, biologically. They are nothing but 2 people, who are elder than you, and think that they lived longer than you, hence make them far more superior than you, and basically, they own you. which is true. they own you, so you have to follow whatever they said. 
Parents, are nothing but the 2 person that claim that they care for you, in which, i dont know how many of them do so deep in their heart, then they will start scolding you 'for your own good', in which this point, i oppose very much. they 'care' for you, well, partly, if you're the lucky ones, they love you. whereas the unlucky ones, u're just here to please them. when things don't go in their way, they make you feel bad. they insult you in all kind of words. well, asian parents. this is typical, especially those who were brought up in an extremely asian minded family, like mine. To be specific, they haunt you with the same old thing you done wrong once, and they exaggerate it. Not enough? they tell the whole world, right or wrong things you done, they tell whoever they know when they talk about it. 
Or you call it a genetic thing. Your characteristic, your behaviour, its a total reflect of your parents. The thing in human is that they dont like to see another side of them in another human being. Especially, human pick up negative attitude from others so quickly that they didnt even notice it. One thing parents like to do - boast about themselves. This is how a parent wil do to their kids when their kids is not how they want. 'Can't you be like me? I've set a good example for you, why dont you learn me?' and then the scoldings start. Things don't work that way, to all of you parents. You see, when you boast about yourself, yes, maybe a 2 year old kiddo will think yeah i shall be like my parent. but as they grow older, you 'technique' of teaching kids dont work anymore. when they goes to the primary school, they mix with the others, they pick up others' behaviour, they start thinking, whats the point of me being you? it's pointless, useless, troublesome. why? because you never reason the right thing to them. 
Reasoning, very important survival skills in this society. 

people, might think she's beautiful. 
but i think she's ugly. this is not some kind of jealousy of her .. interesting lifestlye?? well i dont envy nor admire her lifestyle. no. i enjoy mine very much. i like staying alone. it's a kind of freedom.
everytime she appears, it's the bunch of make ups on her face. it's obviously till the extent that when she removes her make up, u'll never recognize her. because the eyes are instantly shrink so much, and her brows, well, most girls who does make up all the time have this prob - the browless look after removing their make ups. 
so, why? 
it seems you people does make up all the time, it is almost everyday. well, your skin probably gets only 8 hours rest a day, and breathe, and that is time when you sleep. so why torture yourself when your skin will only get worse so much fast? and i remember you used to, and still, complain about your skin condition. why wont you rest your skins from those claimed to be organic / very efficient skind products? not to mention those cosmetics drains off your money in no time. also, those night parties, drinkings time-consuming-and-thinking-consuming-costumes. i dont doubt you having so much time. i really dont. coz you dont study medicine, you took... business or some managing course, if im not mistaken. 

2012,
They say its the year that the world would end. apparently, no. im still alive. and for that day, i remember i tweeted this pic, and shuwhey said she like this expression alot. actually, this pose was inspired of her 'wtf-wtv-ur-such-an-idiot' pose. :P
   

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It's like there's nothing good whenever i update my blog here. 
For those of you who don't know, i went for my violin exam during lunch time. 
most unprepared violin exam i'd say. as you people know, im in med school, so basically is freaking hard for me to squeeze my time out for violin practice. i have to rush home for violin practice and classes. and of because of these reasons, a conclusion of the exam will be, say goodbye to the my beloved friend - distinction. 
no more perfect mark in aural (very unprepared), the examiner, first of all, to me, she's trying so hard to help me, and i'd happily say perhaps im the only one who she dont need to repeat her sentence over and over again like those previous candidates who were small lil kids. I can see that she's trying very hard to smile, she's trying very hard to give me a friendly impression so that i wont be nervous. but nahhhh, her first impression freaked me out. she came out with some freaking serious face (as you know, all old people have face problem because they dont have such firm skin as we do, theirs are all sagging. especially when they dont smile, it looked fking strict)

 It was never right to judge others' reflection, since the beginning. 
Who are you to judge other's feeling when you dint went through the exact situation as them?
Who are you to judge others when you weren't there the whole time to witness what happened? 
It was never fair. 
And it's getting too much. All we need to do is pretend to reflect ourselve, and please you people to get good grades. Since when a reflection is to get grades? 

Imagine, the moment before you open your eyes, all you heard was someone shouting your name at the door, loudly, till the whole street hears, and it's not your fault to wake up in time coz the phone alarm won't ring when you did set it last night. 
 
How would you feel? 

Well, people must have moments where they are rude in their lifetime. Nobody's perfect. 
I dont mind you being sarcastic all the time. I really dont mind. I can take sarcasm. In fact, my tolerance towards sarcasm is quite high I'd say. But when it comes to rude behaviour, my tolerance is really low. Again, everyone must have moments they behave rudely. I dont care. As long as you dont cross my line. Because I am rude sometimes, I am rude sometimes to my close friends, I am rude to my family (most of the time). Why? because they are close to me. They accept me for who I am. So, I feel safe to be rude to them, once in a while. 
 
But YOU! Your sarcasm doesnt affect me much. Same words, coming out from different mouth, different tone, it makes A WHOLE LOT OF DIFFERENCE! The way you said it was so rude, with that facial expression and you think it's funny. Perhaps you dont know how rude you were. Your impression was boarderline to me, and now, your impression is bad to me. 

Of all the things i done these days, so immoral, in fact, God still love me :3
Application for GP Posting settled in one go. 
you wont know how happy I am when other people kept getting shut by the door. 
you wont know how happy I am when other people tried at least 10 to 20 to 30 to 40 GP clinic and got shut by the door and i settled it by one go coz my mom's staff worked there.
you wont know how happy I am when I expected to face the same thing as them and the deadline is almost here.