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i start to regret everything i've done.

i start to think alot. how, if i dont meet my aims? how? how am i gonna go on???

i hate waiting for results... academic results especially. coz anything might happen, even though u try to sorta prepare yourself for the worse situation. but, sometimes, what happen is as what u predicted, there's still a slight/quite alot disappointment in u. and, things become worse, especially when things happened is worse than what u expected.

man. i hate it. especially the day before results coming out. 

i still remember. the day when SPM results come out. i was having chem prac before i went to get my results. i hands totally shivered. and i feel like crying. but, when i get the results, its not what i expected. and yea, there's a slight disappointment. but, i felt relieved. somehow. 

please God, i dont wanna have any feeling of disappointment. not even a slight one!

=(

FYI,

im reallly down now.

so.. i just came back frm work. yea. work. 

those government skl lar. problematic sial. wanna give holidays but wanna have replacement pulak. might as well dont give holidays????

so i taught a siudidi aka my student lar. as usual. we crap sometimes.. during lessons. he's a hyperactive boi. unlike me. can just sit down and study for HOURS =d YEA. that's me. lifeless-studios-girl. but sometimes, when i study, my mind's just floating around XD. Do bare in mind that, i can handle that!!! =D especially when im motivated..!!! or depressed!!!! 

back to topic. 

this time, while waiting for his mom, we talked craped. he's only std 3. i think. that's what he told me. lol. so as what PRIMARY SKL KIDS will do. ask u those so called IQ ques. 

what's the KEY that opens BANANA????

yea. stupid me, 1st thing, i just couldn't think of other 'keys'... i said banana key....???? and then he said. WHY AR??? SO EASY!! MY FRIENDS ALL SAID BANANA KEY!! BUT WRRRONNNGG!!! (damn cute rite he..XD)

then i asked. so.. what's the answer??? then he said. its MONKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea monkey. i totally wth-ed. owh and, he laughed at my wtf face!!!! ish. boi... boi..... so naive rite??? 

i totally miss those moments. just because of that, im ACTING naive now XD owh and SPEAKING ABOUT NAIVE, he asked me another ques that day... i mean.... last year. 2010.

after some crapping, he outta sudden :'' OWH WAIIITTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE U MARRIED????''

yes. agn. i wtf in my heart. and kinda ... like... shouting..??? OFCOURSE NOO!!!!!! WHAT MAKES U THINK IM MARRIED?????? OMG!!!

he naively said.... i dunno... most of those teachers are married. so.. im wondering u're married... 

wtf.

kids. LOL. i was like that too. XD

i really miss those questioning nonsense moment. aww

DAMMIT. 

today's already fri!!!!!!! btw, i love this week. coz, i basically have 3 days of classes. =D

tues was jan 11 CAL orientation, and thurs was thaipusam. =D HAHA!!!2 days off!!!!! weee~~ ( but actually i wasted moneh  that i paid. blardie hell. ish)

okay, why'd i sscoled dammit, ITS BECAUSE! IT REMINDS ME OF AS RESULTS' COMIN OUT!!!!

i seriously enjoyed life like no one's business since AS ended. mannnnn... cant u just not wake me up with a nightmare??? omg.. taking results' just a nightmare...

2moro start working frm 3-4.30. and sun work 11-11.45. 

msians LOVE to do things last minute. (including me XD) sometimes, i find that doing things last minute is... adventurous... exciting...????? okay. so those parents informed me last minute. YES LAST MINUTE! they've got this replacement thingy.. (good thing i escaped that =D) have to change time... last minute.. arsh....

lol actually i've got nth to do oso.. other than study chem..??? test agn nxt fri. owh and speaking about chem test. i know that i seriously screwed today's. dammit. it supposed to be NaOH, and i put Na nia.. babii.... 3 marks gone... but..  ... ...  WHO CARES??? =D as if they're gonna send it to my parents. 

that's how i we comfort ourselves. but, the truth is, i SUCK!!! 

so, imma study harder for that physical chem. to make the results look better??? memuaskan my .. ...  desponess XD

and, here's some joke.. of the day.. == its kinda lame joke lar actually.

kumar: ehhh Thaipusam is DAMN AWESOME LAH!!! U GUYS SHUD GO!!!! omg!

yuyang: so did u pierced??? 

my boss called me while she's driving!!!! haha!!! 

what a good citizen who obey the rules!!!!!! XD

so proud of msian citizen!!!! =D

owh speaking about this good citizen thing, it reminds me of mingying. last year, we went for the class gathering+ mamaG's bday celebration. she fetched me back home (thx alot! still.) and when we were at the summit's traffic light, it was about red, its yellow lar basically. when we reach the white line, ngam ngam it turns red. she she said something really epic! "okayyy~ im a good citizen" so i thought shez gonna stop. 

but!!!

(u know what imma say d rite?? since there's a but!)

yea rite!!!!!! 

she didnt stop!!! but, haha!!!! drive FASTER summore. 

yea. this is, msian citizen. a good citizen. 

aren't we ?????? =D

im so not efficient these days. the so called study leave is too long for me, which i didnt study A SINGLE THING that my teachers expected US to study. and i'll say it PROUD AND LOUD! =D

so, ignore all those emo moody aggressive side of me, coz imma tell u something funny!

so, i get hungry easily these days, and i was thinkin why, so i decided to ask my mom.

me: meee~ why ar??? these days i get hungry SO EASILY!! its like.. almost every 2 hrs

my mom: *busy ironing clothes*... ... ...

me: WHHYYY ARRR???

my mom: huuuuh???? u pregnant issit????

and im like... wtf! LOL! my aunty P is with me rite now larrr!!!! how can i be pregnant! i didnt do anything to make me pregnant oso... wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf

and she's like... 000... then ar, 2nd development issit????

me: good if i grow taller... ... ... ==

so, i told this to my friends, and their reaction is all.. 'HUH??? UR MOM REALLY SAID THAT??? WTH!! HAHAHHAHAHA!!! CANT BELIEVE WEHHHH!!!' somehow, my mom LOVES to ask these kinda ques... if something kinda goes wrong in me, she'll ask this ques. wtf. she just dont trust me.. wth. I AIN'T THAT DESPO. ==

i think im KINDA back to normal. 

shuuuu u dark clouds! =D

Sorry people...! 

i just being so weird these days. somehow. ( im know im always weird, but this time is extraordinarily weird)

so, get prepared for the torture coming. coz i know that i will last quite long and i just couldn't control it.  sometimes, when i comes, what u can do, i just to accept it. wtf.

sorry for annoying u guys.

=(

dont give me a fake fking hope when u're seriously unsure about it.

its been more than a month since i told u that and what u do everytime when i remind u is, i'll find a time to take u there. and u, ended up kept delaying it. again and again. just tell me if u dont want to do it. i'll just use ur effing account and fking get it thru on9. 

u dont understand. how despo i am towards it.

and all u do, is let me down. over and over again. 

u know i hate that. and that's wat u kept doing to me. 

i wont even beg u, if i have a car, i'll just go get it myself. why would i do all these as if i'm a despo dog hoping that his owner to give him some love. 

u dont understand.

u just DON'T fking understand!

so, the junior's coming in nxt tues for CAL orientation.

just a sudden thought....

im old.... T^T

it's all coming to an end.

bulk up everything for the last whatsoever sprint... no more time left for jogging

by, Ms annie

God's always treated me REALLY WELL!! 

i get wtv i wanted. but, its just the matter of time. XD

i love u, God <3

now, i just hope i can get good grades in my studies. and make my future bright, get into Uni i want, to have a luxuries life in future (ish greedy nyer...)

yeap life's full of s.s

p/s: for those who dont know, S.S means shiok sendiri 

college's gonna reopen tomorrow.

those good lifes ppl(hou mehng XD direct translate lol) will be back AFTER a few days college reopen, PLEASE MAKE SURE U GUYS BRING ME SOME SOUVENIRS!!! XD

doubt i'd sleep early tonight... class at 8 tomorrow... so... should i bring the friggin labcoat???? since there's LAB tomorrow according to the suckie new timetable in portals... BLARDIE HELL!!! I HATE THE TIMETABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously wth... last period at bio lab on thurs!!!! go back at 3!!! wth.. OBJECTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really HATE the new timetable T^T CHANGE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i shall get prepared for tues... college's gonna reopen on tues!!!! ITS A BIG DAY OKAY!!!! i'll most probably see blue faces... XD

can u believe that i'd done NOTHING!!!!  wtv the teachers told me to do so during this holidays, or aka ( they call it as) "study leave"?????

i shall REALLY GET PREPARED FOR IT!

and, chao~