♪♫ ~*Mi¢hεl£ε•τoo~*♪♫

so SOME of u know, there's abit prob with my finger... my cute hand, was hurt. and, my left hand's cute-straight-yeng index finger's kinda twisted, and it took me about a week to not-fully-recovered, but i can still manage to play my piano and violin with the pain. now, its ALMOST, fully recovered. 

owh, this pic, HAHA!!! im not really sure whether u can see the treble clef anot. XD my piano teacher noticed that!!!! aaaaahaaahahha!!! how awesome right??? 

the second thought of her was, i actually drew it on my hand???!!!!

LOL i wont be THAT free okay?? and if im that free, how am i gonna get THIS colour, right??? =D

owh and it was this swallon... urgh, it looks like a leech when i see this... 

and fyi, i cany even bend or really straighten my finger.. poor lil finger~

but now, its back to the ori cute-straight(erm.. almost)-yeng index finger of mine =D

but still, its kinda pain, when i really straighten in or, even when i play violin, when i need to really squeeze my index finger... but that doesnt contribute to me getting outta tune ==

gotta see those 3 small kids tomorrow . 

and i BET, none of them practiced. coz i was like them too =D

not to say they are not interested, but, u know, ppl like us, need continue motivation, coz we dont have enough patience. ESPECIALLY SMALL BOI BOI =D those siu didi, all they know is, talk talk talk, play, and run around, chasing each other. lol their life is this easy. who will actually think about studies when they are in primary skl??? I DONT! i dont even care oso... lol every time, i'll just copy the answer for my homework, most of the time lar, not everytime. and thats how i screwed my UPSR...

speaking of UPSR, i really dont understand, why do we even need that exam... waste of time, waste of money, waste of paper, waste of ink, waste of trees... aka polluting the environment they even print those papers with colour..??!!! wth... when i 1st saw, i was excited... but... now when i think back, shits... waste moneh nia... blardie hell lol

oops and im outta topic agn... 

yes, i do enjoy the holidays... erm... the so called study leave.... which i didnt study lol. but things doesnt go on as i think in this starting of 2011... ish... and now, i really cant stand this boredom. partly because i cant stand the nagging of my parents' and my stupid bro... he's so damn stupid... and HE'S REALLY EFFING STUPID!!! blardie hell....

btw, tues' coming =D and i know i'll be throw with all those tests and so called h/w...u know.. teachers always LOVE us to do the reading part =)

i start to miss those year-end-busy-moments. because i'd no time to think much but just do... =)

A2, here i come =D

that i actually shouted WTF in my heart the most, in my life.

erm.. spelling error there, for the ori S.H.E

(i WAS a fan of their's!!!!!)

 the LONGEST one i shouted in my heart.. XD

it is actually a pork knuckle..

gosh... and it came out... DAMN BIG!

but... eeeehehehehehh... not that nice... lol

 i dont find it VERY related to those drinks.... seriously

i'd got no idea why the hell they put it this way...

same goes to this... 

lol

u're here!!! 

i didnt expect u to come so fast =) but still, u're here! 

i welcome u with my opened arms, hoping this will be a pleasant year, an awesome one!!!

things go on smoothly kay?coz my future depends on u,twenty-eleven!

and do note that, i love u!

yeaps

ITS 31ST OF DECEMBER PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

omg! time flies... ... ... its already the last day of twenty-ten 

as i said previously, so much times in other posts, 2010 is a really fun year! its like, i'd been thru so much things in just a year. 

how many times i'd been thru depression, embarrassed, being high almost everyday in college, fyi, i'm not like this when i was in high skl.. seriously...  i dont laugh this much, i dont laugh this loud, im not this sampat, i dont talk this much, im not this crazy... seriously... i think u guys are the catalyst of me being like this. *crazy laughs and finger pointing u guys* and of course, there's so many things more... agn, just that i cant really think of it right now LOL or u should say that im really lazy to think of it XD

so.. CAL's gonna end nxt June... awww, time really flies....

and owh! i went to the KPP talk ytd... i really dont understand why the government wanna waste so much $$ to have such talk... its just a waste of money... 6 hrs is like MORE THAN ENOUGH! (just skip the common sense thing since everything's in the book.. and just go to what we really dont know!) and u still wanna increase it to 18Hrs??? come on!!! it's not about whether ppl know it or not, its about ARE WE GOING TO APPLY IT!!! frankly speaking, a typical Msian, as we are, we dont deserve u guys to sacrifice so much for us (the talk thing.. actually we're paying it ourselves to the driving skl ==). U can randomly as a Msian (a qualified teenager onwards) some ques about the road, i believe most of them can actually answer most of your ques correctly. they know it, just that they dont want to apply it!!! on the road..... its like moral. ppl can score 90+++ marks in their moral theory test... but how many of them will actually apply it in the reality??? even their parents are like these... how can u expect ppl to be good when their parents dont even give a damn shit about YOUR plans?

ok skip this nasty talk lol

its about 10 more hrs to twenty-eleven =D

here's an early wish frm me,

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS =D

i cant play for... ... ... about at least a week?????? those who are not related, leave this post, immediately.. gogogogogogogogoogogogogogo

dont you understand????　now!!! go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks to you, u're the best of the best mannnn!!!!!!

clearly, u knew how important my hands and fingers were, and this is not the farggin 1st time u did, i its obvious that i know when u read this farggin post, u'll be like... IN YOUR FACE!!!!  who calls u to throw my chair and all those nonsense. fyi, u too act like a BITCH or i should call u .. a dog...????? and do mind your words, i pushed =) do u even think that by blocking me in fb and re-add my after a couple months do affect my feelings??? like 'ohhh the moment u blocked me im so upset sobs~ i wanna cry, i feel so bad~ i feel so  sry for what i did~ can u please unblock me????~~~~' please, wake up! or i shouldnt wake u up frm fantasizing. i love seeing u fantasizing, so that u'll flung every single thing =) being emo 24/7

i would enjoy that for the rest of my lives, watching u suffering all days. 

if i have a chance to talk to God, i'd tell him,i wont want him to curse u or wtv, coz there's something called karma. lets see what happens.

wherelse, i would like have a wish, that i'm awesomely great in everything, be the best of the best =)

and u'll be the one who envy me all the time, and i'd happy enough. =D

我是女的，你是男的！

我永远都是错的，你永远都是对的！

我是母狗，你是人类！

我没家教，你最有家教！

我最便宜，你最贵！

我最碍眼，你最亮眼！

我弹来弹去还是这样，你，每每新鲜，不同凡响，最有创意！

您，犹如神般，那么神圣

您，犹如白色丝绸般，那么纯洁

我，就像路边的乞丐，臭气熏天

我，就像过街老鼠，人人喊打

一句讲完，你这傲气高昂的年轻人，迟早吃自己！

hey guys! 

25th of dec is over, and there we go, 4 more days to 2011. actually, i dont know whether i should be happy or sad, coz 2010 is a great year, to me. its like, one of my happiest year =D a year where dont need to worry of much stuffs other than studies. =) not to say i like to worry about studies, but its like, when u worry about it, u tend to work harder so that those things u're worrying wont happen, and the results turn out to be at least better than u expected, only if u work hard enough for it =)

hmm or maybe i changed. im not as stubborn towards things as i were. 

ohya, and faith towards yourselves 

i wont forget, how depressed i were those days kept failing my thinking skills XD believing in myself, and at last i managed to pass!! =DDD

and i also wont forget, how loud we laughed together in public, how we fatt hao when talking about some guys secretly (not quite secretly, just that not infront of those useless guys that we know XD) with the friends of mine, who just met this year, the pm14s =) i love u guys <3

people keep telling me that nxt year will be REALLY hectic. and i kept imagining, how hectic will it be, but i cant get the picture of it. lets see what's gonna happen nxt year =) the hectic-ness

countdown

vvvvvvv

HI POEPLE!!!

abviously, im back frm xueji camp =D

and after the long sleep, and ppl starting to post about it, here i come, doing the same thing. and it'll be in chinese. here it goes. 

有看到这里之前的文章的你们，应该知道我本来不打算回巢的。但最后，我选择了回去。因为有了交通=D 要谢谢昀芊～～真的很感激！！！

这次回去，心里那份对学记的火，再次地，燃烧。

现在的我，真的很想念你们。真的。

虽然只是2天一夜，我还是很开心。老实说，本来，我已经对‘学记’这两个字，因为种种原因差不多没感情了，也许因为人少，一些真的消失了很久的学记回来了，沟通的机会多了。

我不会忘记我们真的坐下来/站着，看着他们在营里面，最后一天的检讨会，讨论着，种种原因，到底要怎样解决问题。当中，情绪激动过，最终，也平静了下来。这，也是我们一起分析问题，算是最久的一次吧～（突然有种好像心理学家的感觉XD)其实，看到国刚这样，真的很不忍心。真的很想帮助他，但我对他们真的不了解。我根本不知道问题出现在那里。抱歉我帮不了忙，明年应该会到他们的区会议帮忙吧（如果会议的地方靠近梳邦XD）

这是我第一次，早上6点钟才睡觉。=D 谈天谈到那么夜～（其实也不算是谈天，而是玩～ 还有还有！！ 八！！！！XD)

还有，那件学校又三卡拉鬼死酱远～～ 那个钟声也不是钟声，而是一些很可爱的音乐，每次严肃的时候/骂人的时候，真的很potong!!!!气死人。现在回想起来，还是会笑～XD

24届的你们：

我不懂有几个会看到这篇文章，我也不懂你们怎么想，我只到现场一天，但这不是我个人觉得，但老实说，这个营，不理想。你们应该觉得庆幸，因为那班小的很容易被娱乐。那个团康，我都看到没有眼看，选择和他们出去吃早餐=D

你们已经卸任了，已经是别人的学哥学姐们了。这也表示你们的责任，多了。负担重了。应该做好学哥学姐该有的榜样。而不是整天只顾着娱乐（糟了～感觉好像在骂人了～～）你们应该懂问题在哪里，用脑想办法去解决，团结一点，吧学记当作你们自己重要的一部分（同时也别荒废你们的学业！！）懂吗？我们不是那么有空要时时刻刻去担心你们的，我们也有自己的事情要做。

记得，尽你们所能，带好下一届！！！！

老了的：

慧怡，这次和你算是我们认识以来，聊最久了～ 分析性格XD 希望下次回去的时候能够再见！！

淑祯，你变态了～ 不只是我一个人讲咯～～XD 改天一起去吃鸡饭！！！

伟杰，谢谢你载进载出～ 那个手的，讲酱多次，不显的咩？不过，第一次听的时候，还蛮好笑的～～=D 有缘在见=）

佩仪，很想念你那巫婆的笑声！！！！还有，你sokk 了！！！ XD

i decide to go,again a lil quarrel with my with my parents, just a very tiny lil one... =) but they still allow me to go. i dunno whether they're aware that im going today... evening..==they better be aware that imma overnight there. or they'll just scold me behind me.. urgh

btw, yes, xueji', imma go back today =)))))))))))

everything was okay, almost perfect, as we wished.

but this doesn't goes right as what we wished starting from the ending of the 1st part. 

a day before that day, we played, too. 

it was worse. maybe this is the 1st time for both of us. under the spotlight, which you can feel, it's really hot when it shines on you. and that time onwards, i knew, why always, she play till sweat.

we started horribly, with different speed. im slightly faster than him, always. urgh. owh and the best part was, i'm supposed to be better than him, much better than him, but in the reality, it's the opposite way. somehow, it cames to the middle part of it, we looked at each other, with a stunt look. we're lost. shits. i really hope that there's a place for me to hide that time. 

back to the main day.

we planned, right before our turn. as long as, we're in the same tempo, sounds together, then'll be alright. ignore each other's mistakes or wtv. 

during the 2nd part, it starts to sound falling apart... its as if a plate of green beans just fell on the floor. its all over the floor. 

and at last, we ended, suckily. we bowed, and quickly went down, with full of embarrassed feelings in our heart. 

and after a while, its my turn, again. 

this time, its me and only me. ==

started the wrong part. and then, did a stupid act to the audience. and then, started all over again. and THAT'S the most embarrassing thing that i've ever done in my entire life. 

i really wonder, why the heck i did that. 

seriously, but why?

tomorrow's the day, and yea, new batch of the xueji's WILL be coming in (woohoo!!!)

actually, speaking of xueji, its something that used to comfort me, alot. not to say no more but, i think its because of the distance between us, we're all busy with our own things. and.. the last time i'd actually met them was... during the national camp???!!! which i'm holding a post of counselor and i didn't did much about it, sureen did it for me  instead... due to my piano diploma exam. and. oh! luckily i managed to PASS!!! =D ( im sure  history wont repeat ofor my L with that kinda suckie result)

back to topic.

i was REALLY thinking whether or not to go that camp. but at last, i chose not to go.

maybe you xueji's reading this post will feel that my reasons is... stupid, unforgivable... but yea, thats MY reasons of not going. ==

you know, FIRST! sg besi is WAY TOO FAR frm Subang. i know some of you frm Subang who's still effing smgt going there.no matter how. but, humans, i dont have a car, even i have a car, i cant drive yet, and even i can drive, i dont know how to go, even i know how to go, MY PARENTS WILL NOT ALLOW ME TO GO... so far... i know it's ridiculous that im 18, and my parents are still kinda like look after me as if im a tiny lil baby. and THAT'S THE FACT! and besides, im really tired. i need rests. plus, i need to practise. though i didnt, today.... ... ... lol

and, sometimes, i do feel like, im left behind... sometimes... for me, it's pointless, when we have a so called 'gathering', and ppl are talking only to their own-old-usual-gang. then what's the point of it? you dont even wanna communicate with us.. what's the point of us having it? what's the point of me going back when most of you sticking back to your own gang? yes, as a human, we do, sometimes dislike some ppl... but this is not the way... every people have their own good thing inside them. its not that, you think he/she is bad, they'll be ALWAYS as what you people think. stop fantasizing! 

and fyi, fantasizing is what i used to do. especially for xueji. things changed. especially when u grow. when i was a xueji, i had prob with school's friends. and i thought that wouldn't happen is xueji. because, xueji's is different. most of us are the same type of people. but as time past, things doesnt seems like that. things weren't as perfect as i thought. and, i started to learn things. 

do you know that, sometimes, fantasizing IS a good thing, especially if you kinda use it to... ... ...  de-stress?? when u're depressed??? (haha it rhymes lol) but humans, dont over use it... or u're gonna be like a jour... blaming this and that, all the time, or nowadays what ppl call it.. emo?!

ok im outta topic, again.. ==

so, it really depends on you, how you utilize it. 

and i know some of you, take xueji as.. a going-out-together-friend, or only-laughing-together-friend and etc. but, as what the xueji's always say, we're a family, a really HUGE family. with tons of biologically-unrelated-humans. we dont bitch abt xueji (sometimes we do, though. due the to boringness and the over-kan-cheong-ness)

xueji's a place where, its the 1st time, i felt im loved, by a friend. the 1st place where i've been totally 24hr high in other ppl's view. whenever they think about me, they'll think of, owh... the chih sin poh... 24 hrs high, hyper active, or what so ever. yea. i have to admit it coz everytime i see you guys, i just dont wanna make you guys feel bored, and run away frm me just because im not fun, i dont wanna be alone, i dont wanna be the one who's left behind, so much. 

all of this, was how i felt last time. and that eventually leads to what u guys think about me - the so called hyperactive fat girl. owh and, i admit that, most of the time, things weren't fun without a bunch of people, laughing together with you. 

but now, i feel that, its important. somehow, i just feel that way. 

and, i really miss you guys, ALOT.