♪♫ ~*Mi¢hεl£ε•τoo~*♪♫

maybe someday, i'll get what i want. 

i need more time. 
i really do need more time.  

time

24小时前的那个拥抱，
虽然理智告诉我他不会记得
我紧紧抱着他的那一刻，
但那对我而言，此生难忘。

那一刻，感觉很不真实。
因为我从来，从来都没想像这一刻。

虽说嘴上老提着要干嘛，干嘛的，
事实上，并不是打从心底安排好要做的事，
真的，只是嘴上说说罢了

但眼看我前面那女的都抱上去了，
我不抱的话就此生遗憾啊！
干脆什么矜持都不要了！
两个都抱上去！

我不知道其他人是怎样，
但我抱上去的，
是带着我的爱，紧紧地抱着。
脸上带着的是人家讲的，最幸福的笑容。
那一刻，我真的觉得我是世界上最幸福的人。 

而他，是我抱过最久的人，
也是我抱过最紧的人。

拥抱

WongFuProductions~

i wouldn't say im a great fan/no.1 fan of them, coz im not a person who'll do all the posters, all the handmade souvenirs,  toys, blih blah. im not. i'd say im a big fan of them instead. :) 

i... contribute my screaming/shouting to them? 

anyways, i believe most of u know that i went for their SouthEast Asia Tour WF4L! :D
i didnt know that InspireME increased the number of WongFu Fans frm 300 to a thousand. i mean, that is crazy!
i thought i was that lucky enough to be one of the 300.. :P
i didn't know that until yesterday when i was there queueing up for the meet and greet session. 
 the queue was freaking long. LONGGGGGGG
and im thinking, this.. is not 300, right? and i asked people around me and THAT TIME only i found out!

1st time seeing Malaysian being so kiasu, waiting for HOURS before the time even come.
 heard people even reach taylors to queue up at 1pm for the meet and greet session???
CRAZY! KIASUUU!!!
 

but nyah.... who cares?? the most important thing is, we ALL ENJOYED!
Wes and Phil, the fans, the performers, the emcee, some but not all staffs :P

it was a great night, heh, phil and wes are soooo huggable! 
sorry if i scared both of you with such a craziness but i really couldn't help seeing people i love that always appear on my computer screen appearing infront of me for real. 

LOVE THEIR SMILE!!!!!!!!! 

wongfuproductions, philip wang, wesley chan, jin hitz.fm, taylors lakeside campus

i dont know how true is this, but i received this as an email and it says....

health, foot

i dont know about you people, but i'll go hyper whenever i see my friends no matter how shitty i feel inside. 

class' great after the 1 week of CNY off. i mean, CNY! the number of angpaos received doesnt really matter to me coz CNY is all about reunion! meeting your.. ... ... long-time-no-see family members! your cousins, your fun AHNTY and UNCOs! owh and.. FOOD! :D CNY cookies! nom nom noms~

i wasnt in the CNY mood till the 1st day of CNY, 12am :P the mood came in only after wishing everyone i know (most of u) why is that so late? ehem. because, A MED STUDENT IS LIFELESS!!!! imagine, u have to study during ur CNY, when u're suppose to eat, sleep, play, receive angpaos and repeat! haha. okay okay, i know im exagarrating. yes. being a med student is lifeless. but in MY case, its because my exam's around the corner. so yeah. 

im a kiasu person, i don't wanna fail. and i can guarantee, no one would LOVE to fail in anything in their life. 

anyways, back to topic. i expected this year's CNY will be boring, lifeless, etc. tho i didnt do much things during the 1 week break but when people asked me about my 1 week off, i somehow tend to reply them with.. AWESOME! from what i remember, what i did was, receive angpao, eat, watch tv, online, do some unproductive study, sleep, talk.. .. ..  and thats seemed to be all.... owh and walk around with my family! :D idk if i changed, but i find listening to my family's stories' interesting. yes. including my aunts', uncles', cousins' bitching session! owh well, bitching sessions are always interesting. :P

now that im back in subang, classes started, i miss my AHNTIS, my UNCOs, my cousins, my cousins' kids. why are my family so cute? :3

family, reunion, CNY

its been a sweet CNY this time :)
things i didnt expected came in sweetly. 
the only thing i hope is to keep this sweetness going throughout the year, even CNY's over. 

btw, the sweetest thing about this CNY,
SPOT IN DA HAUS! :D
he's been a cutie so far. 10 months old baybeh. <3
following me everywhere even to my room!
and guess what, he'll make all sorta noises but bark just to make me come down and release him frm being tied up.

smart dog :P 

CNY

没结果，就是没结果。 

再怎么盼，再怎么望，也都没用。

与其像个傻子，与其像个疯子，与其自己疯狂，

与其每天早晨充满着天堂般的期待，然后仿佛由天堂坠入地狱般的失落，

那么辛苦，倒不如放手。

给我一点时间，我深信我可以。 

我不玩了，

不是不爱玩，不是不会，

而是玩不起。

你，珍重。

不玩了

"Study's a very hard thing to do u know? u must be determined and discplined enough to clear your mind out and sit down there and study" - Ms annie

frankly, i didnt really get what she meant until recently. i mean, why is it so hard to sit down, and clear my mind off and study? why is that so hard? it's either im distracted or i feel sleepy a few minutes later. and then, wtv i read are outta my mind. 

it's like i can do anything for HOURS than studying. i can stare at some white boring plain wall for hours than studying efficiently, i can watch tv and rmb everything there than studying efficiently, i can youtube for hours, i can fb for hours, i can chat for hours, etc. 

anything but studying efficiently. W.H.Y!

its depressing realizing the fact that people studying so much lesser than u, and they can remember things better, u studied more, but u remember nothing. feeling like an useless bimbo facing the stack of notes and remember nothing. 

P/S: this is not an emo post. 
its more of a bitching ones.  

study

sometimes, silence's the gold, preferably, with a smile. and that's what i always do. 

been having mood swings these days and its so temperamental. its like, being hyper in this min, and the next sec, not sure whether's the consequence of being hyper or what, i'm emo. its like a plane crash. being high up in the sky few min ago and nxt few min, crashed. and the funniest thing is, im back to normal in the nxt few min, and there again, when im alone or even some small, tiny lil thing happened, i get emo again. sigh. hormones *shakes head*

i wouldnt say i've been crying alot these days, in fact, i did cry. but not a lot. 

i need to release all these shit i have in me. and the only way, is through tears. shedding these tears, with full of negative feelings, feels great. ofcourse, i have a shortcut way of shedding these tears, watching some sad/touching movie. :P i mean, that's the fastest way to cry if u feel really horrible at the moment but there's no way to release it. To be frank, i tried crying using adele's song. but, idk whether the problem is that i listen to much to her songs or what, i somehow can't cry. the most would be tearing up, and it dried up. thats all. 

ANYWAYS, im kinda outta topic now. back to topic. :P 

these mood swings, people been asking me, what happened to me these days. and my only reaction to them is to give either my hiao-est laugh or my sweetest smile, without any words replied. its not that i dont wanna reply, but i really thing it's pointless to explain and its all small matter, i dont wanna exaggerate it to wow you people, and partly, im lazy to think how to rephrase my sentence in a proper way. u know i suck at it :/

kissin's playing's taking my breath away. 

to me, he's some weirdo in life, as in the way he talk, he act, etc. 
but all these doesn't really matter after listening to his playing. 

he's a great performer indeed.
one of the most gifted.  

perhaps u'll understand what i've been feeling after listening to all these songs. 

silences, life, evgeny kissin, classicalmusic

I NEED A BETTER BRAIN!

A BRAIN THAT CAN CONTROL MYSELF BETTER!

A BRAIN THAT DONT FORGET STUFFS EASILY!

D:

brain

there are more time per day, so that i have more time to study and sleep longer.

exams aren't on end of feb, so that i can go see wongfu without any worries.

you remember me, you talk to me, so that i'll be motivated to study everyday. 

i have better brain, so that i remember whatever i read and waste so much time reading/doing the same old thing over and over again. 

we photo(s) together. we know each other. we chat with each other. 

im yours and you're mine. 

ah. 

one and only, wishes, only if

it's not THAT long since i blogged here. it was only before i went overseas. 
it's not that i don't wanna blog, it's just that im so tired, never get sick of sleeping since i was back from HK&TW. and yea, im lazy to report out what i done there coz so many things happened. ANYWAYS, i had great time over there. :) 

and yeah, this is the 1st post of mine on 2012. 
i really think 2012 is a year to learn, much more, compared to past years.
i'll be more and more busy, i suppose? with all the exams coming up. starting of the year, mid year, mid-mid year, year end, year end-end... yeap. exam year.  

and new year resolution? only one. 

PASS ALL MY EXAMS WITH GRADES I WANT!

that's all. :)

quote xinyee “2012难，又老又stress” 
and i really hope the white hair dont pop out this year, at least.  

2012