或许我们在你们眼中很无谓，
或许我们在你们眼中除了陌生人，什么都不是，
要怪也只有怪我们错过了黄金时期，但我们都不想。
原来，我对你们，根本就不能抱着任何希望。就算是一丝，也不被允许的。
因为就算是一丝希望，失望还是有，心，还是纠着痛。
就像是被爱人遗忘。
或许这种感受你们不懂。
又或许你们不在乎， 但我们都在乎。 我们真的，很在乎！
凡事都说出口，那，心，又是交来做什么？
对，我是任性，但那不是要你们纵容，而是要让你们看见我们的存在。
我们都是人，我们都有感情，不是你们说见就见，说散就散。
不是你们呼之则来，挥之则去。 我们， 都！不！是！
你们连最基本的，见个面，就算是面对面了，连个招呼都不打。
好好反省吧，人类。
I dont know if you have this problem, because apparently, I have.
sometimes, the same sentence, in my mind and after I say it out, it is like two whole meaning. Somehow, sometimes, I got too excited and the tone changes, i start to talk they way that my mind doesnt programme to deliever the message. HOWEVER! i tend to say it in a sacarstic/bad/evil/etc way, BUT MY MIND DOESNT EVEN MEAN IT! and to some people who dont know me that well or not that close to me, they'll hate the way I talk and they eventually hate me. :( yeah, one of you.
I know, I can't please everyone in this world, neither I am so LoA, desperate to be the most likable person in the world, NO! I'm NOT!
but to certain people, i do think that way :P
anyways, I'm just curious if u are having the same problem as I do. hehe.
signing off peeps.
nights :)
Dear Uni folks, to those who think im PMS-ing/shit face-ing, my apologies.
i really have no energy to smile to you awesome people like i usually do. My weekend were exhausting, it was interesting however. :P
the whole saturday was all about children, KIDS!
first was teaching, 4 hours was tiring enough. then it was outing straight after i finished work to S. Pyramid for shopping till late evening then dinner in SS17 (the food there was REALLY awesome).
the desserts especially, it was awesome! my favourite was this one below :3
im somehow a dessert crazy fan nowadays.
btw, i was back home quite late night at saturday.
THEN! when everyone's sleeping, im doing PBL at night, midnight :P
without getting any quality rest, im out again the next day, with quite a crappy health status. feeling so sick in the summit. but well, it's mother's day. celebrating mother's day in summit with my family. which is again, awesome despite the crappy health status. :)
and this is the reason why im so tired today, playing with my cousin's daughter 2 days straight. Playing with hyperactive kids are... tiring. really tiring.
so yea, basically that's why im not in a mood to even smile & talk properly to some of you people.
Sorry.
P/S: Moocow's new blueberry flavour taste sooo good
belanja anyone? :3
food
is
awesome
:D
raspberry macaron
the appearance totally bought me out
it taste... not bad i'd say
class starting on the coming monday.
frankly speaking, i dont know if it's a good sign that i feel... nothing...
owh okay, maybe not nothing.
i cant wait to see the bunch of crazy people because i miss them so so so so so much
and the course, well, new system, i've totally got no idea how is it going to be.
heard people saying respi's a hard topic.
and it keeps me wondering :/
anyways,
food, is what kept me moving all these while
cheers folks
1 week break after finishing a system is great.
at least i've got time to rest my mind out, sleep like the nobody's business ( it is actually :P) then catch up with what i left behind ( although it ain't much... it its always better than nothing) :D
there's a say, 'sleeping is a medical student's luxury'.
well, i disagree this saying when i first heard because i just couldnt understand how can a person crave for sleep when u're only studying. then slowly, when the days are nearer to the sem1 exam, i start to think, damn i need sleep, im lack of it. and that onwards, i cherish my sleeping time, each and everytime, i'll make sure i have quality sleep :P
sleep rawks :D
i've been blogging for years. and yes. i never like to go back and read the post i blogged. because it seemed so childish. and i somehow dont like to face the fact that im childish because i truly believe that i AM mature, at that moment, and a moment later, hahh, i still think that im childish :P
as you can see, my blog updates are getting less by year.
not that i dont feel like blogging, but i've got nothing to blog about.
or you can read it as, i suck in words, i suck at writing.
no matter how good the topic that is for me to blog about, i somehow never type it into words, the sentence that im satisfy with. Never. Just somehow.
i have friends complaining to me that my blog's dead, and i always reply them with a smile, or a laugh, and continued with, 'yeah im busy', or ' i've got nothing to blog about'
well, the reason i said i've got nothing to blog about, as i told you, i suck in words, i dont know how to put those feelings into words, it's something deep inside me, it's huge, and it's so condense. and everytime i have those feeling, its when i want to blog about, but i just cant put it into words. ahhhh words, you're killing me.
even when it comes to studies. how much I just wish that im better in language and understanding, so that I can remember things with less effort.
you blame, you bitch, you scold ALL THE TIME! and for the wrong reason, EVERYTIME, but not even an apologize after that.
showing your faces, yes i know that's your superiority, that you're so good at it. -.-
and what i hate the most, is that whenever you bitch, your stare, your glare, and the most annoying shaking head, acting that u're swallowing your saliva. HELL! do u even have that MUCH saliva to swallow? DO YOU?
could you PLEASE, i beg you, at least get your facts right before you start shouting like a bitch. i dont mind you shaming yourselves but hello, if that's something to do with me, then you're messing with the wrong person.
i'll freaking keep my mouth shut if im the one who's wrong. but im not!
the older you go, the MORE you dont listen to people, the MORE you dont get your facts right before you start bombarding people around you.
and you NEVER apologize.
BESIDES!
you always scold us for talking loud (you think), but look who's louder. you said he and his family always talk irrespectfully loud, but aren't you one of them?
you're shouting EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, without fail.
you never reflect yourself before you even criticize people.
im disappointed over you.
sometimes, u wanted something so badly, and the jealousy comes when you saw other people having it (person/stuffs/jobs, nothing in specific) and u even curse the person who has it. but as time passed, you slowly get use to it, you started thinking, things aint that bad actually, why so persistent? the world ain't gonna end just because u don't get what you want.
in the end, when that person lost what he/she got, and there goes the 'awwww D:'
i dont know if you people experienced this, but this happens all the time to me.
you jealous, you get used to it, and when you're finally used to it, things end, you feel sad for them, and you regret.
it was really fun running around splashing, shooting water to people.
and im in love with that boy, he's sooooo cute :3
so cute :D
owh btw, the festival is NOT ONLY about splashing water to each other, there are also performances, and friggin nais food :D
P/S: life's really good without the need of worrying for exams.
i'd never been so tired in my life before college.
eversince i stepped into college, life's getting busier, time is flying like mad. its like today is monday, the next thing you realize it IS already friday!
and eversince i stepped into uni, my life is full of printing lecture notes, staring at the computer, staring at the lecture notes, locking myself on the chair, and my ass getting bigger and bigger day by day. its really tiring. yet, as i said in the previous post, im happy. not that i'll say i love this life or i dont like life like this, but at least, im happy of what im doing now, no matter how tiring i am.
why am i happy?
because people around me are mature enough to accept those weakness in me instead of spreading bad words/bitching behind me like what you always see in high school, full of politics.
also, the reason i love my CAL life, simple enough, people are mature enough to know, which kind of words we should speak, we should take it seriously and which are those who we should just ignore it :) (i miss the PM14s, i really do miss every single member!)
the never ending pile of notes are just keeping me away from thinking about those nonsense. which is... GOOD :D
i do whatever i like around those people. life is really good :D
we shoot each other, being mean to each other, but no harsh feelings between. isn't life great with all these people around?
it is, at least to me :)
im busy these days. really busy.
im tired, really tired. exhausted i mean :p
but im happy.
no matter what happened are now the past. and what i need to do is to work for the future. ohyeah~
im happy with my life now. no matter how tired, how tough is it.
and i'll keep fantasizing wes as my motivation. :D
u're doing such stupid things over and over again.
and u think u're always right. stop being so childish.
u're a male yet u act like a bimbo/bitch.
this is too much.
how much more do i need to tolerate with those shit u're to do?
i hate people who scold people for the wrong/exaggerated reasons and no apologies after that.
yes u're fking good SPM student.
and im a fking useless med student. i dont worth any respect even a bit, as a human.
and yes, u, a high school student, wtv post u're holding on scouts which i dont freaking care, u worth much of respect, and u speak fantastic english with what? american accent? oh no, sorry, u're anyhow a high class human, i apologize for being so many class lower than you, i speak manglish, my english sucks, i laugh in the public loudly like no one's there, i burp in your face, im shorter than you, im fat, my high school grades are lower than you, my high school mates cant study as how u can study so much, u're such a genius and im such an idiot, u're so sven, and im rough, u're so educated, u're an intellectual man and i act like im uneducated. yeh maybe, im not as educated as you do and im sorry i cant act as good as you infront of people.
but hey, when you think u're great, when you think u have such high-class taste, u think u're so educated, so sven, there's always much more people out there, better than you. so what's your point of showing off infront of me how good you are and u dont even dare to talk out there and act emo?
grow up, kid -.-
