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results day's OVER!!!! i feel that it's quite neccessary for me to come here and say something about it. 

to some people, my result's not that good, some even get the same thing as me, they're emo-ing now. but to me, i think it shows effort, how much i successfully convert my effort to percentage. although it's not great, but it ain't bad. im satisfied. :)

to me, getting an A proves my effort went into a good way. it shows how much i studied, which is alot. i remember i said, i aimed for straight A's. apparently, the perfection didnt happen in me. i got a B for my chemistry, yes, i really slacked alot after my trials, coz i thought that i was good enough in chem, and as time goes, i forget what im suppose to remember. yes. this shows that, dont be over confident, thinking that u're smart. no. but, i didn't feel that bad, because firstly, everything has ended, its like, i officially have nothing to do with Cambridge A-level anymore. secondly, it's my fault, lesson learnt, its my own laziness, the only person im to blame with is me, myself. but whats the point of being sad right now? no point. its already a fact, gotta accept it anyhow. i wanna say sorry to mamaG for letting her down, she actually gave me an A for my forecast, and that's the only thing i feel bad about my results.

i'm a person who gets nervous easily especially towards things that i care ALOT! 

seriously, this is the 1st time in my life, not sleeping for more than 24 hrs. i cant sleep. im so worried about the results. thanks to my parents constantly telling me bad cases. i only applied 1 uni, and they keep reminding me if my results aren't good enough to get into it. dang. but luckily, i manage to get into uni :D 

my body was aching when i so called 'woke up' this morning at 8 something. 

and yeah. record breaking day. i freaking clicked the refresh button for 2 whole hours and more just to get into the freaking website and check for my results. 

just wanna ask, U KNOW that this is happening everytime when u release results right? THEN WHY DONT U IMPROVE THE FREAKING WEBSITE!!!! do u know that the money we pay u people for the examination fees are ALOT??? u can freaking earn bazillion there. but why dont u use those money to improve the results checking website? 

gah. 

anyways, i wanna thank all my teachers, ms annie, mamaG and mr satya :D thanks for the consultation time. tho i didnt went very frequent until examination days. and i wont forget that i was the only one who attended bio class when its getting nearer to exam. its kinda fun though. but skipping classes is even more fun :P
we had great times attending your classes. :) although our class is not like other class, scoring crazily high marks, but, hey, u know, some filthy rich ppl go for tution, we dont :D

OWH AND! WHEN ARE THE FREAKING PM14s MEETING UP???? (for those who're still in selangor/KL) LETS FREAKING MEET UP BEFORE THE FREAKING UNI STARTS ;P

and finally, CAL, im done. 
*feelin kinda sad now* 

WOW ITS AUGUST! TIME FLIES! 

i've been rotting at home for 2 whole months after A2 exam. and now, its only 10 more days for results. erm. great.... ( sense the sarcasm??)

okay. okay. less crap. what i wanna say is just.. im worried abt my results. thats it. sigh.

i always wanted to update this blog with interesting things. 

but the thing is, i've got nothing interesting to post about it here. life's being miserable these days. as juyinn said. its tough.

exams are like wave, it never end, its coming one after another. not me this time but the siu didis'. after theirs, i have to face my CAL results. i've got no idea what's it gonna be. as the days getting closer, im getting more worried. no joke. anything can happen for CAL. when u think u can get an A, u might not get it. thats what i learnt from my AS. yes. bio. :/ owh and after facing MY results, THEIR results together with MY violin practical exam's coming out probably in september or october. gawsh. 

i'm those ppl who NEVER like suspense. some people might like it, but, sadly, im not one of those. just because of that, sometimes i feel as if i cant breathe. its like, my heart went really heavy suddenly, and its not pumping properly. 

i just dont like all these crap. i dont mind for good results. but if its bad results, i'd rather not to know them. no one like bad results right? now its not the time for saying that im regret or im putting too high expectations on myself or wtv crap. its whether i get it, or not.  

sometimes i really feel like killing myself. 

once again, i NEVER LIKE SUSPENSE. shiats.

just realized that i lost the key.

im so dead.

YO!!! im BACK from singapore =D

i never liked singapore, somehow. but it seems different now. i was totally amazed by their facilities, and the speed that the singaporeans walk. gosh. that's really fast. anyways, we spent 3 days 2nights there. we stayed in this place called checkers inn, the backpackers hostel kinda thing? anyways, its a nice place to stay at. i mean, things are great there. its so comfortable. 

anyways, ignore my fat leg. it looks nice right??
and this,

isnt it cool?? thats the ceiling

basically, we took train to singapore. yes. night train. 

yea u're right, suaku me never took night train before. look at the typical asian pose we did LOL
owh btw, night train is torturing, i mean, if u're those who don't fall asleep easily, u basically dont getta sleep on the train. its so noisy. :P 

and creepy...

anyways, we reach singapore at sharp 6:30am. settled everything at around 7am? then wanyung's aunt came and fetch us for breakfast. and THEN!!!! we took our own sweet time, discussing where to visit, plans and stuff before we move on to the mrt station to get to Little India where Checkers Inn is. 

today is, sunday, tomorrow, is, monday. and i'll be back at friday. ITS FRIDAY! (gawsh it sounded like rebecca black's friday)

ANYWAYS, what imma say is, im going to s'pore =D with my girls,. meeting up celine and lisa's ah pa at universal studio on wed =DDD will be updating with loads of pics when im back. or... i'll upload it on fb there. =D

omg im so excited to see them. I MISS THEM SOO MUCH!!!      

okay. so, i know i'd been real emo for these few days. over some stupid little unpleasant things, that i cared alot, desperate of, i wanted that alot. but the moment when it ended, i realize, its impossible to get that. anymore. i thought lying to myself will make me feel better, but it didn't. the thing is, i know i'm lying. and the stupidest thing u can do to yourself is, lying to yourself. and i actually did that. wow. great one m2!

sometimes, people tend to do stupid things just to get over it. but they never realize that things they're doing are actually the stupidest thing ever just to get over it. gah. ==

and yeah, as i said, first, i lied to myself, i told myself it'd be okay, but i know it won't. i won't get what i wanted so much based on what just happened. friends that i told them about the incident, told me the same thing. 'nahh~ it'll be okay. the others oso okay wert...' that time, i was really speechless when they told me the same thing. i went speechless is because i was really dissappointed over myself. why they hell i think that much before that. u get what i mean? 

anyways, i took me 2 days to get over it. guess how. 2 days, watching wongfu's vid. like, all day??? YEAH ALL DAY!!! and im addicted to it now. lol. i wasn't a huge fan of them before this. i mean, i dont go crazy over their vid. but things seems the other way round now. hehe. 3 funny guys. :P never get sick of them.

YES! I PASSED MY JPJ DRIVING TEST =DDDD

i didnt started well at 1st. and i can tell u that SERIOUSLY. as in, the real serious type! 

the 1st one was the slope aka bukit. 1st time, i stopped before line. ok fine. the examiner told me that, as me to try agn. bare in mind that each candidate are given 2 chances. so, obviously, i somehow missed my 1st chance. and the best part's coming. the 2nd chance for the slope. yeah. best part.

i went up and stopped successfully, without any error. the examiner was satisfied with it. okay. then he ask me to continue my so called journey, tho its only a few metres. and the problem started. i press so called oil pedal, to the req ones. and slowly lift my clutch pedal up. then, mati engine. bapak. he said, x pe, boleh lagi. teruskan. okayyy. then another try, same darn thing again. this time i managed to move a lil front. but still, the same thing happened. damn. 4-5 times continuously like this. i became really panic. as in, my hands were shaking, i think that fella can even hear my breath. and, i was just a step before crying out. like, seriously, i was to cried out. I NEVER EXPERIENCED THAT OKAY! but surprisingly, those, actually happened in 1 minute. I NEVER EXPERIENCED SUCH  A LONG MINUTE IN MY LIFE! no joke. 

owh anyways, finally i getta go down in time. yes. in a minute. and when i turned out, i wast thinking, im so gonna fail my slope.

then, its the side parking. the 1 i hated most during learning since my instuctor scolded me alot on this, and i took a really long time to memorise those steps. i mean, its quite alot steps for a zero knowledge so called driver and dont even drive their parents' car. coz its too big xD ITS THE TRUTH OKAY! BUT!!!! this darn side parking, is the one that i did most smoothly during test. i took less that 3 minutes mann. not bad right??? :P owh i almost forgotten. during the side parking test, there's this examiner came and ask me, amoiiiiii!!!! knape x pakai tali pinggang??? mau saye fail u kaa???? i was like... WTF???!!! i dont know abt that okay!!! coz usually, my instructor will ask me to take off my seat belt for side parking. HOW THE HELL I KNOW LAHHH MUST PUT MY SEAT BELT ON?? U PPL SAY DO IT AS USUAL.... WTH! 

then, 3 point turn. another one which i nearly failed. as u guys know, we're not supposed to touch the yellow line right? guess what, my tayar ALMOST touched it. i had this bad feelings right after i turned into the dead end, so called. i knew i turned too early. when i was to reverse, i knew it was gonna touch the yellow line, and i was like, plz plz plz... no no no!! dont touch dont touch dont touch!!! and when i successfully went out, i was relieved. 

and when i went to get my result slip, i was really surprised that.. I ACTUALLY PASSED MY SLOPE! I DID IT WITHIN 1 MINUTE?????????????????? OMG MIRACLES!!! and i thought, God actually gave my whatever i wanted, so much. yes. THANK GOD! and i love u!

that was really a miracle. and fyi, no pao okay!!! u know what i mean. >:D

anyways, i passed overall. =DD sooo happy 

actually,  its only a probation period for a license, yet, im happy enough. <3 

if u wanted it so desperately, u'd do anything just to motivate yourself to get those crap done. 

its about how u're motivated and how long you can stand it. 

basically, im not a person who's 1ce motivated, or set a target, i'll defenitely achieve it. i'm not. i'm those who give up easily. so, everything of that i'd achieved, it's the timing that made me achieve it. 

but somethings, sometimes, just don't go as what u wanted SO MUCH! its like, u tried harder, harder, and harder. and u thought that u'll actually kinda close to it. but, NO! u're actually so darn far away frm what u wanted. and then, you'd thought that, nevermind, i'll work harder. but, at one point, you work hard till u're no longer motivated, u're sick of that particular thing. it's like, owh, you again? urgh. but nevermind, u're mind are still strong enough to make you force yourself into it, giving the so called fake 'enjoying' expressions. and then, ur energy wearing out, day by day, the muscles doesn't even want to coordinate with ur brain. eventually, u're so fed up, starting to give up, and think that no matter how hard you tried, it's still not u wanted. at last, u're like 'owh screw it!' *throw your things aside* and you gave up. 

had you ever experience that??? owh and! the MOST IMPORTANT THING IS! u actually regretted when everything ended. IT'S SO HUMILIATING!

and yeah. in my case, i think im over practicing. i'd lost the motivation. im totally SICK of it. but i want it to be better, or i should say perfect... yes. perfect. I DONT WANT MYSELF TO REGRET! DAYUM! because, that's what i should get! 

maybe, some of u will think that i'm a kiasu bitch. yes. I AM! I ADMIT IT! I dont mind losing, BUT I HATE BEING LOOK DOWN BY PEOPLE! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT! its enough that i'm being look down by people! i wanna make them as if their jaws drop hardly on the floor and crushed into powders as if some elephant or dinosaurs stepped on it.  u get what i meant? u know how desperate i am for that???? i guess only those who been through this before will understand how i feel. 

1st of all, allow me to just nag for a moment... ...

WHAT THE HELL...... I UPLOADED THAT DARN VID LIKE... 2 YEARS AGO, AND ITS ONLY GOT A FEW HUNDRED VIEWS, AND SOME THIEVE WENT AND FREAKING STEAL MY VID, UPLOADED IT ON HIS/HER OWN CHANNEL, AND GUESS WHAT, THIS FREAK ACTUALLY HAVE MORE VIEW THAN THE VID IN MY CHANNEL... THOUSANDS MAN! THE SAME FREAKING FAT HANDS WITH SLIPS VID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW RIDICULOUS CAN THIS BE?????? GOSHHHHH...!!!!!! URGH! 

okay, anyways, i'm not pissed lahh... im just... i find it ridiculous. EXTREMELY RIDICULOUS! GOSH! 

OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IM OVER REACTING NOW! EEK!!

anyways, did i mentioned that i LOVE holidays???? lazying at home is soooooooooooooooooooo nais!!! i mean, i can sleep WHENEVER I WANT!!! that's like the BEST THING EVER!!!!!!!

and.... I HATE CAMPAIGNING!!! it make me feel so... thick skinned, as if im BUGGING everyone for the poor little likes as votes for me not to loose till so malu. ==

im really SICK of doing that. so, please peeps, help me, by liking the darn vid. kay??? =) like.. im begging for likes so that i wont loose till so malu...???

1st, like this page http://www.facebook.com/GiantAntsTalentHub 

then, like the vid in this page http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150205191772113

i personally think that in that vid, i didnt sang it good enough, but trust me, if u judge my singing by just watching that vid, THEN U'RE TOTALLY WRONG!! im not only that, i uploaded it and sent it to Giant Ants coz i was lazy of recording it again and again and again. every single time, when i get it right, and when its almost done, SOME SHITTY THINGS must happen that make me NOT TO USE the so called 'perfect' ones. =) 

and i know, some of u, those who think that... aaahhhh... lameee... lifeless. YES IM LIFELESS! 

btw, im working on adele's rolling in the deep and set fire to the rain. IF!!! there's chance, i'll upload it to youtube, and yeahhh, i'll post it here. =)

CHAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO =D 

i personally am NOT a 'must win' people. i dont mind losing at times, tho im quite a kia-su person, but still, SOMETIMES. =) 

and most of the time, towards things that im NOT interested,  I DONT FUCKING GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT IT even if i lose. its okay that u win, withor without u deserving that , I DONT FUCKING CARE. but DO watch ur words u sucker! DONT FUCKING HUMILIATE THE OTHERS! thought that u're the best or some shit. if u win, u keep ur mouth shut or u freaking fake thank those ppl who helped u, I DONT CARE! but DO ASK UR LEHNGS aka ur FANS to shut the idiotic mouth that humiliate other ppl up! keep those words to urself if u think we are such a loser like how u think with ur narrow realistic idiotic brains.

im not dead, i can read. and yeah. THE BEST PART IS I so called do a background research you people!!

P/S: u are somehow a loser whenever u think u're a winner.
so, watch ur words winners. =) 
better not to piss losers like me off.
coz WE losers are good at cursing people.
owh yeah! 

that was.. erm.. taken at.. 12am..??? 

when i've got NOTHING to do in the midnight, and having insomnia, and cant connect to maple server, the best thing i can do is... SS =D

eh eh eh.. dont lah gimme that wierd face.... I KNOW lah i always take all these weird weird ss pics :P BUT I REALLY GOT NOTHING TO DOOOOOOO... erm wait... what about the books that i bought ... ehhhhhehehhehehehe. I TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT XD 

anyways, I LOVE HOLIDAYS =D

its been since after SPM that i have my REAL holiday. even after SPM i didnt have much holidays, 3 weeks holidays i suppose? then CAL started. and after CAL's AS, the year end holiday was... really empty. i totally wasted that holiday. i can barely... erm.. not barely, I TOTALLY CANT RECALL WHAT I DID during the so called holidays. seriously. that was like.. i sleep for a few days, then college reopened. 

BUT! CAL was one for my fav part of my life. 
NICE MEETING ppl that i'd met frm CAL.
yes yes yes!!! u u u u u u u u!!! AND U !!! ALL OF U! =DDDDD

ANYWAYS, after CAL finals, guess what, i still got exams going on, violin exam, driving test. GAH. i cant wait for the S'pore trip :3

i'm a craaaazy christina grimmie fan. BUT! somehow, when i heard of the album coming out, i wasn't excited at all, all the reaction i gave was, owh. okay. erm. yay! coz i thought that it will be.. u know, its her singing. yeah. christina grimmie. LIKE NORMAL.. AS USUAL. AWESOME VOICE. omg why am i bitting around the bush? OKAY MY POINT IS, I FOUND IT UNATTRACTIVE AT FIRST. urgh.

BUT!!!!!!!! WAIT! DONT CLOSE THIS PAGE FIRST!!!!!

THAT WAS BEFORE I EVEN LISTEN TO HER ALBUM!!!!

after i listen to her album, yeah, WHOLE ALBUM ON YOUTUBE! it was, surprising! u did a really great job christina. seriously. that was unexpected! give us more surprise next time =D

youtube is soooo fast. the album was only out this midnight, and poof. there it is. its already on youtube now!

basically, i like all the songs in the album. but yeah. i LOVE 'unforgivable' and 'liar liar' it sounded interesting =)

and... THAT IS THE END OF THIS POST =D aaahh. i know. some of you are giving my this wtf face. I KNOW! =) smile people. don't u know im always that lame????

before that, here's unforgivable. a very heart breaking song... if u ever experienced that, you should feel it after listening this song. bwaaaahhhhhhh *fake cry*