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not in the good mood to joke around these days as i was in the previous months.

so sensitive. 

there ain't wound. but dont even dare to come and touch me. it hurts. no matter how. 

sometimes i'd prefer u to shut up and do your work, rather than to ignore me and talk to others. as if i did something ridiculously wrong to u. wtf are u thinking man! and what's with the tone of u using to me? who do u think i am? im also a human u jerk! I HAVE FEELINGS!!!

and to whom, u know urself well. im not gonna tell anyone who the hell are u. 

sometimes i thought, not worthy of me being so angry. but hey, it's too much and i can't take it anymore. it's no longer the matter of worthy or not, its the matter of u being such jerk to me. u know who u are. 

u'd better fking realize, jerk.

i dont know how i feel,
you wont know how i feel, 
you shouldn't know how i feel,
because u're not suppose to know i feel,
and i know i shouldn't be complaining about it,
because i ain't suppose to be doing these,
all the jealousy,
all the guilt,
all the evil thoughts,

fuck off.

i'd been really evil these days,
those words,
those act,
once again,
reminding myself's a bitch,
not a typical bitch though,
but still,
a bitch.

wtf.

been really busy these days,

whenever u think u're in a peaceful, awesome life, something must happen, telling u that u're slacking and u're not suppose to slack at that moment and things change eventually. 

most of the time things comes automatically to u when u aren't ready for it, and by the time that u're ready, u'll realize that missed the freaking chance. 

sometimes, its better that u not knowing such things happening that u're involved but you shouldn't know because u'll simply ruin things up after knowing it. 

some people claim themselves as complicated person but actually, they're not. they're just.... .. .. . they just want your attention. 

sometimes when u think u can do it, and u really CAN do it, but u're so sick of continuing, u gave up so last minute when thing's about to end. and at last, u regretted. 

i love this bitch.  
she state things in her lyrics are so direct in such a sick way,
and that is why i love her,
coz she's being who she is. 

seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, its okay not to be okay.

for those who think that i'm not okay/emo, i really am okay. 

:) 

  
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If it wasn't for the Internet, would you have ever seen or known about these little creatures?

sometimes after im done with my self-entertaining session (which is what im doing 80% time of the day), i start feeling, im just a sad bitch, that needs to entertain myself, no one's willing to entertain me other than me, myself, yours truly. it's just sad talking to myself this much. no matter how hyper i am, when the time comes, where everything ended, this is what i feel. crap. bitch. plain annoying. 

ofcourse, i wont say fml. coz i ain't qualified to say that. coz i'm a lucky girl, with such people around me, loving me alot. 

but as i said, im just a bitch. i'm not pretty. i'm not smart. i'm annoying and i know that. but i just couldn't help stop annoying people when im hyper. and somehow, i'll get hyper whenever i see my college/uni friends.

P/S: this is what happen when im crash after the hyperness. 
gawsh, the bitchiness in me. -.- 

u people know that i suck in words, so i'll make things easy and striaght to the point.

To all the awesome people i know, 

u know who u are. i've been missing all of u these days so badly. i miss u peeps! yes u're awesome. and i love u alot. :) u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u!!!!

yes. i love u. and i mean it. 

i was kinda stalking people around me, and the more pics of them i view, the more i think. why are they so cute. they're such awesome people, such cute pies :D and there i go..... HYPERRRRR :DDDDD

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things seems going good these days, but it's actually not as good as i thought i was. wth :/

it's the insecure in me that i feel. 

i'm forever feeling this insecureness. it's not that i want to feel like this. it's that i have no choice. just, somehow. maybe u call this PMS. but nyah. i dont think so. its me. i'm the problem. 

i always have all these crappy feelings. ofcourse, what im feeling now, its just very mild. more of wesley-chan-ing WILL make me feel better. BUT!! the problem is, i'll feel the same crap again whenever i see them. -.-

urgh. im being such a bitch again. 

I remember few months back, i posted on how dissapointedof me towards myself. yes. its was because of violin exam. 

i was so nervous that my bow cant even stay still especially during scales. and that's not the worst part. the worse part was, i totally screwed my pieces up. that's what i think at least. i put in so much effort, i wanted distinction coz i know i can get that if i practice enough. and that of what i did in the exam room, really made myself down, i was so disappointed to myself coz i know i can do SO MUCH better than that. and yeah. the main reason was i thought i'd never get distinction. 

i'm a kiasu person, sometimes, as u can see.  -.-

frankly, i even overpracticed for this. until my muscles ache like mad. 

and idk how many times i have to say this but it really took me a week at least, to feel ABIT! better. ofcourse that would be longer without wongfuproductions :D speaking of wongfu, IM SO EXCITED THAT THEY'RE IN TAIWAN FOR LEEHOM'S MV ;DDDDDDDDDDD

anyways, i think most of u awesome peeps arnd me know, i get distinction for it. :D actually, when my bro sms-ed me, i was watching jonny english. i actually had not much feelings getting distinction. but it was indeed a surprise for me as i totally gave my hope up of getting distinction. 

THANK GOD that HE LOVES ME! ME LOVE U TOO! 

P/S: i love my PM14 and Grp6 too :D

what if the fortune that'd been following all these time, decided to ditch me, and go for the others?

imagine it.

that time, i'll be very dead. 

this time, it's a serious matter. if i miss it, and that's it. u awesome human can say buh-bye to your awesome Dear Michelle Too Ee Shan. 

LIFE IS TOUGH. LG's a LIE! 

i've got so many things to say. but idk what exactly should i say. owhmai. 2 weeks of orientation passed. strictly speaking, its actually 3 weeks, including the raya week :)

i enjoyed alot overall. seriously. abt the didnt fit in and all during the heart-to-heart-talk at finale night, was true. i didnt meant to be rude or smth. but i think i should clarify. the reason i felt that i cant fit in was because i felt the so called intec gang's bond was too strong, its kinda hard to blend into them at 1st. but after so many activities, nahhhhhhhhh WE LOVE EACH OTHER. DONT U THINK SO? ;D 

im not a person who's good in words, i suck in talking. besides, the reason i didnt talk much about how i feel that time was because i know if i continue talking, i'll cry. im a very sensitive person. from my past experience, whenever i talk during all these thing, i'd cry at my 2nd sentence itself. i just dont wanna cry like how i did. trust me, its darn ugly. 

anyways, this is what i'm gonna say to all of u awesome grp 6 hamsaps (seniors AND juniors). 
im glad to be in group 6 meeting u awesome people, having those awesome bitching session, gossiping session, fungkaz-ing session, etc. the only regret for me is to miss those mamak session. as u know, i cant go because i have AWESOME parents. *u know what i mean :D* and i'm really proud that our performance are mostly TOP :D too bad that no one recorded our pirates of carribean 5 performance during variety night. i really enjoy being around u peeps. 

we really laugh outta nth huh. 

FUNGKAAAAAAZZZZZ!!

and i enjoyed being pikachu that night 

PIKA~!

P/S: I LOVE MY GROUP 6 !

im the bitch. 

it's all my fault. 

close case. 

:D